Any past calorie counters out there?

[Guest guest]

I spent the weekend having a good time with my boyfriend and his

family. It was so difficult to focus on IE. So I totally and completely

overate this past Friday, Saturday and Sunday. I did not binge so that

is good! BUT I ate way beyond the point of being full. I felt so

uncomfortable and even now I have a bad belly ache. But I just kept on

eating and eating all the delicious food. Even now I could go for a bag

of doritos? Ugh, why is that?! I am feeling very frustrated right now.

I feel like it is so hard for me to decipher and honor my IE cues from

years of compulsive eating.

Anyway on and off for the past two years I have counted calories. About

a year ago I tried to do IE but quickly abondoned it after I let the

stress from a new job overcome me.

These past few weeks I decided IE is really the only way for me and I

need to truely focus on it.

But calorie counting is so ingrained in my head! I have the calories of

pretty much every food item memorized so it is very easy for me tally

my daily calories within a couple of seconds.

As I am pursuing IE my anxiety levels about my weight have increased. I

am feeling less in control. So I have found it increasingly more

difficult to avoid calorie counting as a means to minimize my concerns.

Has anyone else gone through this? Thanks for reading... : )

- K