Guest guest Posted October 19, 2008 Report Share Posted October 19, 2008 Well, sort of, but not really. Last night, I was working and I got an e-mail from my mother that really concerned me. She's about to put herself through a major alternative surgery, and I am torn between stepping in and stopping her or letting her do it. Sure enough, I found myself breaking into the cookies I bought earlier that day. I ate 4 of them and realized that they didn't taste like anything. So, I ate a small bowl of salt and vinegar potato chips. Couldn't taste them either, so I gave it up. I consciously thought, " Traci, it's obvious that you are wanting something that food can't give you. No matter how much food you eat right now, you are still going to feel bad. Might as well not eat. " So that's what I did. I feel dumb for immediately going to food, after all these years. But, I feel awfully proud that I realized what I was doing only after 4 cookies and a small bowl of chips. Back in the day it could take me a week to figure it out. PS: Still feel like crap, but I know that " this too shall pass... " Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 19, 2008 Report Share Posted October 19, 2008 > Thank you so much for sharing that. I'm sorry to hear about your mom. That's a tough spot to be in. I've noticed myself doing the same thing with food and have had the experience of the food not tasting good anymore either. You described perfectly what I've been just recently acknowledging- that I've been " filling " myself up with the wrong thing. I've realized that I need to nurture myself in non-food ways and only occasionally enjoy food JUST for pleasure. Food has been my source of comfort, entertainment, stress-relief, reward,tool to bury emotions etc. I'm excited to hear how you are all making changes because I know that balence is truly the key to health and happiness. Jen Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 19, 2008 Report Share Posted October 19, 2008 Sweetie I'm confused, what was the stupid thing you did??? I did not read any stupid thing in your post and I read it over three times. LOL What I read is you were trying to turn to food then realized after 4 cookies (not the whole bag) and a small bowl of chips (not the whole bag) that food was not the answer. For me what you did was something to pat yourself on the back for...not a stupid thing. Just my thoughts. > > Well, sort of, but not really. > > Last night, I was working and I got an e-mail from my mother that > really concerned me. She's about to put herself through a major > alternative surgery, and I am torn between stepping in and stopping > her or letting her do it. > > Sure enough, I found myself breaking into the cookies I bought > earlier that day. I ate 4 of them and realized that they didn't taste > like anything. So, I ate a small bowl of salt and vinegar potato > chips. Couldn't taste them either, so I gave it up. I consciously > thought, " Traci, it's obvious that you are wanting something that > food can't give you. No matter how much food you eat right now, you > are still going to feel bad. Might as well not eat. " > > So that's what I did. > > I feel dumb for immediately going to food, after all these years. > But, I feel awfully proud that I realized what I was doing only after > 4 cookies and a small bowl of chips. Back in the day it could take me > a week to figure it out. > > PS: Still feel like crap, but I know that " this too shall pass... " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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