The last few weeks

[Guest guest]

The last few weeks I have been eating like crazy. I can't seem to stop. Every night I've been eating a huge supper and then by about 8 I start eating again. I'm not hungry. I know this. I just can't seem to stop eating. Last Tuesday I bought 2 big bags of chips and they were gone on Thursday. All the while I'm doing this I am aware of the fact I'm not hungry and that I'm going to feel awful (physically and emotionally). I haven't woken up hungry in weeks.

I know why I'm eating though. I'm living alone now...my sister got married and moved out 3 weeks ago. I've been feeling really lonely and it's like food is my new best friend again. I've also been frustrated with work lately...I really am getting to hate my job. And not just my specific job...my whole career. I've thought about moving on and finding a new job but nothing in my field appeals to me. Plus now added to that they have hired back a girl that I can't stand. She has always been really rude to me...it's like I did something to offend her but I have no idea what it could be. She always tries to undermine me and embarrass me. She had her 2 year old son in two weeks ago and he was sitting by me. Then he went over and sat by another woman who works with us and she said "You get to sit by the pretty one now." I was just stunned I didn't know what to do. Nobody else there said

anything...I'm really good friends with the "pretty one" and I know if I said something to her she would just say "Oh I didn't hear her...you must have heard her wrong...she wouldn't say somethign like that!" Everyone else at work just loves her...they are so glad she's come back.

So I know WHY I am eating I just can't seem to be able to stop. Any suggestions? I know that just admitting it here and writing all this out will help me.

Kipkabob

(Intuitive eating since September 2006)__________________________________________________