Guest guest Posted November 4, 2008 Report Share Posted November 4, 2008 Hi everyone... I wanted to stick my head in the door here to try to connect with everyone. I am trying to give up on diets, and 12 step stuff because non of it has ever worked at all. However, it seems that as much as I want to embrace intuitive eating I find that I am rebelling if that makes sense against the idea. I just feel like I am rolling around my days now with no direction and my eating is just nuts. One thing that I have become aware of is tasting my food instead of inhaling my food. I don't do it all the time but I am becoming more aware of it. Anyway, I just wanted to reach out because I am really needing some connections and support these days. Physically I am really in a horrible place right now. My legs are giving out on me and of course I am telling myself I have to " diet " to get my act together so to speak. OK I have to end because I am just rattling nonsense. Peace- Dawn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 7, 2008 Report Share Posted November 7, 2008 Latoya thank you for such a great response. I operate so much out of a fear mode that I don't even think about the other things that you mentioned. My fear is based in not having enough food, eating to much food, not getting the right food... blah blah blah. Fear runs and ruins me. Right now (like too many times these days) being broke is really making fear run wild inside me. As a result the food issue just spirals. The real deal though deep inside me is that I crave a certain lifestyle so much that snickers just seem to work as a tool to kill the fear of perhaps accomplishing that life if that makes sense. It's almost easier to give in and agree that yea, I have a food addiction that is out of control, than it is to say hey, I just have a fear issue that is out of control and right now I am just doing the only thing I know how to do to deal with it. I like the strategies you gave me and I plan on working them into my life on a meal to meal basis so I can start to step towards that holistic life I crave not the pie that I don't. Thank you again for your insight.. Peace- Dawn Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 7, 2008 Report Share Posted November 7, 2008 Dawn, I think I may understand some of what you shared...it somehow feels almost easier to fixate and obsess on food issues than to try to deal with fear itself? Sometimes it is easier to get caught up in the symptoms than to see and to work with the core issues. At least that's the " sense " I got when I let your words sink in and that makes alot of sense to me. It's very easy to use food and restrict food and by doing so numb the fear and anxiety that can seem overwhelming. The awesome thing is that you have awareness of how fear operates in your life. I think that learning to recognize and work with our fears and how they manifest in our eating is really important. Some of us have talked on the group about developing the ability to sit with our true feelings more...fear and all. I've found that the ability to truly feel my feelings has been the best medicine for getting through them and for lessening the power of my intense feelings to send me into tailspins or eating blackouts. I'm making the least money I've made in my entire adult life and as result I'm living with my mom again (which brings up a host of issues), and I face regular anxiety at the prospect of being able to pay back my student loans when they come into effect next year. So, I'm definitely familiar with fear and I've done alot of work with it over the past several years. Fear is a form of constriction, so I've studied different writings and incorporated different practices in order to work with my tendency to constrict and to find ways to expand out into the world. One of my favorite " books " is " Comfortable with Uncertainty " by Pema Chodron, which consists of a collection of mini 1-3 page wisdom chapters. I randomly flip to a chapter in this book as a reminder of my desire to stay centered and with a yahoo id what includes " zen " , I thought you might appreciate it, if you haven't already got this work. Pursuing your dreams can seem like a very daunting task...baby steps and bite size pieces toward a vision helps make it manageable and tangible. I do truly believe that the small and large steps (the work we do in service of our dreams) are the real gifts that we give to ourselves that bring meaning and depth to our everyday life. Latoya:) > > Latoya thank you for such a great response. I operate so much out of a > fear mode that I don't even think about the other things that you > mentioned. My fear is based in not having enough food, eating to much > food, not getting the right food... blah blah blah. Fear runs and > ruins me. Right now (like too many times these days) being broke is > really making fear run wild inside me. As a result the food issue just > spirals. > > The real deal though deep inside me is that I crave a certain > lifestyle so much that snickers just seem to work as a tool to kill > the fear of perhaps accomplishing that life if that makes sense. It's > almost easier to give in and agree that yea, I have a food addiction > that is out of control, than it is to say hey, I just have a fear > issue that is out of control and right now I am just doing the only > thing I know how to do to deal with it. > > I like the strategies you gave me and I plan on working them into my > life on a meal to meal basis so I can start to step towards that > holistic life I crave not the pie that I don't. > > Thank you again for your insight.. > > Peace- > Dawn > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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