why am I scared to be hungry?

[Guest guest]

Just my musing for the day ... I've been working on IE for about a

month now, and had some very nice insights - not all directly to do

with eating - but for instance HOUSEWORK (lol), and old voices from

the past. nothing earth-shattering, just breaking some old voices, ya

know?

but one thing I'm noticing is that of all the IE principles, the one

that is not coming easily as I have these insights is STOP WHEN YOU

ARE FULL. I have realized that I am still AFRAID to be hungry. And I

don't know why. I'm 42, and in my whole life, there is only about 3

months where I literally " had no money " for food - and even then I

didn't really go hungry, just had some really weird meals for a while

eating whatever was left in the pantry with what was in the clearance

bin at the grocery store.

So ... what is up with this? Did I have a bad past-life experience LOL?

I wondering if maybe getting some meal bars or basic snacks to carry

around would get me over this strange " gotta eat now because I don't

dare take the risk of being hungry later " feeling that I'm becoming

aware of ...

just ... WIERD ... since I am at least 50 lbs overweight, it's not

like I've been missing any meals lately!!!!!!!

Mikki