Re: Feeling like a failure.........

[Guest guest]

I wish I could help take away your anger and frustration-- I think we

all wish that we could do that for each other. Since I know I can't

do that for you, I am going to ask you to maybe take a different look

at this scenario. You writing your post and admitting your

frustrations is a wonderful, WONDERFUL opportunity to grow and look

even further to your beliefs. My red flag went up when you said that

you had been doing so " great " because that suggests to me that you

are still in the midst of labeling what you do with food as either

good/bad, black/white. You reaching out for support and help from

those who you know struggle in similar ways is what was " great " in

this scenario in my opinion. You are not alone in this journey and

you are not bad or wrong or unworthy-- you are learning. If you

decided to go to talk to a therapist then that would be something you

could decide to do for YOU not because you are somehow " bad "

or " messed up " .

Can you tell I just came from a therapy session myself?

Hang in there...

My best,

>

> I don't know what to do anymore. I started out really great

earlier

> and then when I got home, I ate doritos and then I ate a doughnut.

Not

> hungry at all!!!!! I don't know why I keep doing this to myself. I

am

> so sorry all. It always seems like I never have good things to

post.

> I guess I am just having alot of self pity right now. I have put

on

> about 110 pounds and I am so miserable. I read the book by

> Weiner(I think that's her name), Life doesn't start 5 pounds from

now.

> It helped at first, but then all the old feelings come back. I am

> beginning to wonder if I need psychiatric help. I feel so

miserable

> right now. I am sorry for the long post, but you guys are the only

> ones I can talk to about how I feel. I almost gave into the diet

voice

> that I need to go back on WW, but then I think about wasting all

that

> time trying to figure out how many points is in this or that. That

is

> not how I want to live my life.

>