Re: Eating and cleaning epiphany

[Guest guest]

Huh.

Wow .

I am going to have to really think on this one.

You are describing me to a tee. Childhood homelife and all.

Wow.

dawnz

>

> I was interested in this line of emails, b/c I had a little epiphany

> about this just the other day.

>

> Left on my own, I tend to let my place get REALLY messy, then have

> one fantastic day where I scrub everything sparkling clean and feel

> great. I always vow to become a moderate cleaner after that, doing

> a little each day, so it never gets too messy again. But, lo and

> behold, I go to the extremes again in no time.

>

> Sound like anything else?

>

> I suddenly realized that this exactly mirrors my relationship with

> food. I would binge, then go on a huge diet and feel great...until

> overeating crept in again, then I'd binge, then " clean out " by

> dieting, etc etc.

>

> I had a very chaotic home life growing up. Constant emotional

> roller coaster, always on tiptoe, never knowing what was around the

> corner. Of course it makes perfect sense that I've re-created that

> anxiety, that chaos, that roller-coaster cycle in these other ways

> in my life.

>

> Intuitive Eating asks us to be moderate and check-in, which goes

> against all my patterns. It's a slower, quieter, less hectic way of

> living. And, of course, seems a little dull at times.

> No more diet drama. No more cursing myself for hours over what I

> ate, or furiously searching for my next Miracle Cure. No, I have to

> eat a little every day, live moderately, and listen to the more

> quiet voices. Interesting challenge...

>

> Does this strike a chord with anyone else out there?

> -

>

[Guest guest]

Wow...yes. I feel the same way Dawnz does. I walked on eggshells growing up. My household environment was intense...my father has a mood disorder and either he was up or down...no inbetween. We had to be "up" when he was up and "down" when he was down. My food and cleaning issues both mirror this. I do just what you described with the "big cleanup" and the promise to keep it up, but inevitably it becomes a mess again. Good insight!DawnR

Re: Eating and cleaning epiphany

Huh.Wow . I am going to have to really think on this one. You are describing me to a tee. Childhood homelife and all. Wow. dawnz>> I was interested in this line of emails, b/c I had a little epiphany > about this just the other day. > > Left on my own, I tend to let my place get REALLY messy, then have > one fantastic day where I scrub everything sparkling clean and feel > great. I always vow to become a moderate cleaner after that, doing > a little each day, so it never gets too messy again. But, lo and > behold, I go to the extremes again in no time.> > Sound like anything

else?> > I suddenly realized that this exactly mirrors my relationship with > food. I would binge, then go on a huge diet and feel great...until > overeating crept in again, then I'd binge, then "clean out" by > dieting, etc etc. > > I had a very chaotic home life growing up. Constant emotional > roller coaster, always on tiptoe, never knowing what was around the > corner. Of course it makes perfect sense that I've re-created that > anxiety, that chaos, that roller-coaster cycle in these other ways > in my life. > > Intuitive Eating asks us to be moderate and check-in, which goes > against all my patterns. It's a slower, quieter, less hectic way of > living. And, of course, seems a little dull at times. > No more diet drama. No more cursing myself for hours over what I > ate, or furiously searching for my next Miracle Cure. No, I have

to > eat a little every day, live moderately, and listen to the more > quiet voices. Interesting challenge...> > Does this strike a chord with anyone else out there?> ->