Guest guest Posted September 8, 2008 Report Share Posted September 8, 2008 Way to go Dawn! That is definately success! One of the hardest things to stop and change is how hard we can be on ourselves. Today is a new day and I like how you are starting fresh in listening to your body. One thing I would like to ask you is why do you feel like your DH was judging your eating? Was it something he said to you? Or was it just your " fear " of him judging you? I know I have to battle these same fears around my Mom. I'm always so concerned with what she " might " say when we are together when in reality, she usually doesn't, it is all in my head. But if she does make judgement, I am now stronger and can stand up to her as an adult and not allow myself to be belittled. Alana > > I'm new to Intuitive Eating and had actually been doing alright. Not > great, not horrible, but alright. > > Then last night I really struggled. > > Maybe it was because we went out for pizza and I felt like dh was > judging my eating. I honestly did fine at the restaurant, but it was > when we got home that all h*** broke loose. I ate and ate and ate. > > My stomach started to hurt and still, I ate on. > > I started feeling dizzy, but I continued shoving that food in my mouth. > > Felt like a " last meal " mentality. > > All for a little rebellion and panic at myself. > > Last night I literally couldn't sleep, my stomach hurt so bad. I dozed > off and on, unable to get comfortable. Finally at 4am, I got up and > got a handful of TUMS. I ate 4, propped up the pillows, and dozed > again for a couple of hours. > > This morning I still hurt. My stomach feels like there's a lead brick > in it and it hurts to move. > > And yet, I learned something valuable. > > I began in this morning, berating myself horribly. And then I stopped > and really thought about what I was saying. Nasty. And I determined to > change that inner voice to one of nurture. I soothed myself. > > So a big ole' leap back, and a little step forward in the right direction. > > Today I wait on myself and my cues. > > This is NOT easy, but today I decide to be gentle with myself. > > dawn > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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