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well here you all go ((big breath))Im 40-yrs. old Im married my wife's name is mistie we went out when I was a senior in high school (1985)I broke it off and we went our separate way's , until 17 yrs. later when my sister and her sister went to there class reunion and her sister asked what I had been up to , my sister gave her my phone number which in turn she gave to mistieshe then called me the following monday, left a message on my machine saying to call if I wanted to catch upso I did and we then talked every day after.we got married two years ago. she has three kids from the previous (abusive) marriage so it was an instant family , we had our first baby together january 14 2007 the best day of my lifeshe was our miracle baby ,, because when my wife was about 6-months along she woke up in the middle of the night with severe cramping, she went to the bathroom and found she wasbleeding , she woke me and said I think I had miscarriage we called here OB and she said get to the ER when we got there the doctor gave her a pelvic exam and ultra sound he then told us It looks as though you are in the early stages of a miscarriage because he said he saw part of the placentaduring the pelvic exam.we were devastated we sat and cried , the doctor came in and said they had scheduled a d & c to remove the fetus . we cried some more and told the doctor that we were not going to do anything as long as the baby had a heart beat. so we waited in that room for about an hour when In walked her OBshe talked to us and we explained what had happened she then did all of the exams again and said that the baby had way to good of a heartbeat to be in distress and that the so called placenta the doctor saw was actually a polyp that had burst . everything after that day was worrisome but on jan. 14 she was born, 3-weeks prematurebut healthy . Yes Im probably a big sap because I cried In the delivery room and in the waiting room with my family. she spent two weeks in the hospital and then finally came homeI still remember going to the hospital every morning at 5:00 am before work to feed her and thinking I never imagined loving someone so much (she is definitely touched by god) we named her elizabeth after my mother, who died of IPF 3-yrs ago I never new anything about this disease until she was sick then I wanted to know everything, she was in and out of the hospital for a few years OHHH! the ups and downs she received her transplant just in time, the strain on her heart was getting to much and her lungs were really badshe recovered from the surgery slowly but when she recovered she was walking all over the place no O2 at all hardlyit was really looking good and for one good year she was great then It all started going down hill ,,,all over again she was in and out of the hospital again with pneumonia and then the rejection started she was on sooo many pills she had to literally carry them around in like a toolboxshe passed away six months laterthat was the saddest day of my life the whole time she had this disease she never once complainedalways always upbeat ,even though we could tell she was really sufferingwatching someone you love slowly day by day slip away was soooo hard but I wanted to spend as much time with her as I could I would go to my mom and dad's house every day in the afternoon I would eat lunch with her and then in the eveningI would stop by just to say goodnight.... now I stop at the cemetery every night on my way home from work to say I LOVE YOUand goodnight .I MISS HER SO VERY MUCHI have to change the subject I am having a hard time with this (can't cry at work)I am an identical triplet , which a lot of people seem to think is so cool , (did you switch classes , girlfriends etc.)It's not all that great and no we did not . I found my self trying to be my own person so I did a lot of things to stand out , just be differentnot grouped with my brother's all the time . that's probably why I grew my hair long and got a lot of tattoos ,just to be different.I guess as we got older we grew closer together and now I like to do a lot of thing's with them and they often come over to my houseall though I think it is just to see elizabethmy hobbies are snowboarding and golf I work in screen printing have been in the business for about 20 yrs I live in rockford MI. (about three hours west of detroit)I was dx in nov. 07 with familial IPF I am not on O2 my PFT numbers show a mild restriction and decreased diffusing capacitythe last test's I had (ct, pft, 6min walk) were in septembermy doctor wanted some new test's done but he said if I was going to participate in this new study coming up (nac,prednisone,imuran)I should just wait till It starts, because all those test's will be free so there you have a little slice of my life NEXT!!