Re: Friends to worry about

[Guest guest]

Bruce I am sure no one would have it any other way! We love you just

the way you are!

Sandie

>

> Sometimes its tough here. I can't imagine Leanne's job. I read of

so

> many people daily who I've so come to care about. It's painful

> sometimes. There are days I want to drive to the Corporate

> headquarters of Apria or Cigna or drive to Toronto and straighten

> someone out. There is not a day here one doesn't here of problems

of

> someone dear to them. I know many wonder why we put ourselves

through

> that day to day.

>

> Well, here's why I do. The only way not to go through that is to

have

> no friends that you care about. Thats a very empty way to live. I

had

> few friends many times as my career took me from place to place.

> Never any with as many health issues as my friends here, but never

> any who meant more to me.

>

> Also, selfishly as an individual perhaps, but also I think

accurately

> for us as a community, we know we do help and are able to be of

some

> value in the lives of others here. Some days it doesn't feel like

> doing much but other days more. Last week we were at was with

Apria.

> Today our hearts, souls and prayers outpour to Joyce. She knows

that.

> Yes, she had family going with her, but she had all of us with her

as

> well and her post on the way out to the hospital reflects that.

>

> Last, any minor contribution we each make is paid back so many

times

> more. I guess I experienced some of it even in the ER briefly when

I

> was worried about getting word here if I stayed in the hospital and

> had more than one plan. I think all of us know we're never alone in

> this battle. We live, we fight, we cry, we suffer, but we don't do

> any of it alone.

>

> So, just had to remind myself today as I do worry that worrying

about

> a community of friends is a choice I made and am glad I did. I'm

> scared to death for Joyce right now. I'm anxious over Gwynne's

> transplant. I'm waiting to hear from Irene. I'm worried about

> everyone here. But I care and love and that so fills one's life

with

> substance.

>

> Thank you all for being here as part of a wonderful community or

> persons, suffering from a horrible disease, but never having to go

it

> alone.

>