Eyes and brain

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Dear everybody,

Thank you so much for responding. I haven't been online much lately,

because I've been sick and exhausted. I'm making my way back to MI

from St. Louis, unfortunately, I couldn't find housing in time.

I can keep the job, though, and if I find another job and a new home

there, I'll get back to it. (It was part time)

Life is still very good.

I'd say they were Migranes, even though they don't pulsate, it's more

like a vibration, and though it doesn't correspond with eye pain. It

doesn't last longer than a few minutes or so, because it descends on

me and stops everything until I remain perfectly still and breathe as

deeply as I can... Then it fades. If I had to describe the pain, I'd

say it was the blue/silver color of lightening, with a tremble...

like an burgeoning electric current.

Actually, the eye trouble is a real constant with me -- I've been

wearing sunglasses (I buy them with my prescription) everyday and

into the night sometimes, for about three years now. It's not dry,

although I used to have dry eyes in HS. It's a black, hot, sometimes

just simmer, behind my eye balls. I can't predict when it will be

bad. I have to have 'dark hours' as I call them, or my eye lids swell

and my vision is shot for the next day.

I ask you guys, because I'm afraid it might be my immune system

attacking something that could cause real problems.

The brain thing is new... just the past few months... and it doesn't

really involve any increased heart rate... (outside my anxious fear).

I recently attended a ceremony and got really excited when I realized

how wonderful it would be... that's an example of the brain thing...

it came and went just as quickly as I tried to calm myself down.

I don't know if this has anything to do with my recent health issues,

but I never had this problem before. I have to be careful because

there is a high incidence of strokes, heart disease, arthritis,

cancer AND diabetes in my family.

yeah, i know.

It's probably a good thing I'm going back to MI. My parents have an

internist friend there, who I'm sure, would cop me a few free

consultations.

LOL.

I can't believe I finished this.

I'm so tired right now.

Love to you all,

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