Wouldn't you know it..(long)

September 26, 2000

Dear All

I had a terrible day today. I had been feeling rotten lately - I'm sure

that I'm slightly hyper again. I've been going to work as there is lots

on at present and I'm finishing my current job next week, before taking

a month off and then starting back in a new position. The hospital has

just done lots of restructuring and I'm in middle management, so busy,

busy, busy.

I am awaiting surgery (12th Oct) and I had an appointment with my endo

today. I had got my nurse to take my blood pressure last week and it was

168/95 - I then took a beta blocker for a few days, which helped. I told

my endo about my symptoms and he was quite dismissive of me. Saying that

I'm a bit overweight which would contribute to my BP and that I must be

anxious about the surgery. He even said I was a control freak!

All this just because I had asked questions about the surgery and didn't

jump at it immediately when he suggested I needed to have it. Were do

these Drs get off thinking that just because we are the patients and

they are the Drs they know best and we should sit there and say very

little - just trust them with our lives!!!

I asked for thyroid function tests - I haven't had one for over 1 month

and he said no, I'll be fine! It's not his damn body going through the

'ups and downs'.

I feel OK about the surgery. I have considered all angles now and I'm Ok

about it. I do concede that I not jumping for joy and I have never had

surgery before so I'm understandably anxious, but not so much so that

I'm having 4 to 5 bowel motions, I have a high BP, a high resting pulse

rate (110), my hair is falling out again, I'm not sleeping, I'm hungry,

I feel irritable, I have 'brain lapses' etc etc. All sound familiar!!!

I did like my endo, I thought he was OK until today.......when I

actually needed him to support me and understand. Instead I got lip

service and the brush off.

God willing I'll be one of the lucky ones who has no problems after the

surgery and rarely has to step foot into an endo's office again.

Thanks for being there at the end of my ravings. Your support helps so

much.

Caroline

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