grieving

[Guest guest]

You're so right, Skye. It's a grieving process everybody goes

through at some level

and it doesn't last forever if you let it take its natural course.

I'm still in it, I think. Each time something new happens…

But I'm safe with myself for the moment, meaning I won't let myself

stay down and go into

that dark area because of this. Life continues, still with

possibility and joys outside

of what my body can and cannot do, or even how tired and helpless

things may seem.

Trying to live through the change without the support of a doctor is

a frightening, frustrating,

painful, disturbing thing. I can't even say how terrifying it is!

And to have to deal with

it when you are still supposed to be out taking the world in a long

stride is an even meaner

blow. But thems the breaks. The way the body works, we are all two

seconds from disability

(fearfully and wonderfully made). It's not about it being fair

anymore, it's about learning

how to adapt at the same time as I learn to accept myself and the

image of my new self and the

workings of my new body.

Everything is a blessing – a chance to be great…

I don't know about you guys, but flares take me into a whole other

place. My thinking

changes- I'm kinda stopped cold, no matter how positive I'm trying

to be. Does anyone

have any methods they use to prepare themselves for the `down'

times??

-----Original Message-----

From: gonzo_skye [mailto:gonzo_skye@...]

Sent: Friday, March 18, 2005 5:10 PM

Rheumatoid Arthritis

Subject: Dawn

Thinking of something to say ..besides.. I ve been there. It sucks

there is no rhyme or reason why it struck you. or me, it just is and

there are stages you go through as in death.. You are so young and

that makes it tougher yet. Reason why support groups are all over

the place so people like us can vent come together and cry laugh

mourn or talk or just simply listen ,you can email or im me at any

time Dawn Gonzo_skye@