Am I mean? or just nurturing myself?

[Guest guest]

Something is killing me and I guess not knowing what it means is worse

A friend of a friend called me last night after 9 pm to ask me questions about

an interview she has today.I interviewed for that position and I would LOVE the

job.

Not knowing the number on my caller ID, I didnt pick up and since she wanted

HELP, I decided to use the time she called as an excuse to avoid returning the

call.

if she were a friend, I may have helped her and let the interview panel decide

on fair basis but she is not a friend and my competitive nature said " dont

return the call " .

It is a tough selection process and I know it is nerva racking for her as it was

for me...but give me a break, she has even more experience than I have and

worked at institutions that give her a good reputation..so does she really need

my help?

Anyway..what is killing me is if I am being too mean.

It would not hurt me if you say that as it is easy to take it from " stranger "

So I spent wed night overeating due to a rejection issue and last night due to a

crisis on what shall i do issue

why is there an issue?

so feel free to be honest

thanks