honoring healthy boundaries/ obeying the internal intelligence

[Guest guest]

I'm really struggling at the moment and feeling " out of control " with food and

practicing IE. I've observed that When I get too focused on ONLY eating when I

am certain I am hungry and they stopping the exact moment I'm satisfied , I'm

left feeling very unsatisfied and the part of me that wants more begins to

rebel…and well when she starts to really yell at me the overeating is just

around the corner (just like I used to eventually " rebel " against other more

severe eating regimes). Relaxing into this lifestyle and food relationship is

very hard. I'm finding myself eating all the time and I start to crave a set of

external boundaries – a quick diet fix that will make me feel like I'm in the

driver's seat again and not at the mercy of my insatiable hunger and cravings.

I am very proud that I have not started a diet in months, nor have I exercised

obscene amounts….but I've gained a noticeable amount of weight, which has set me

into a panic mode now that summer has arrived and I'm at an age where my friends

and I enjoy going to the beach in body-bearing swim wear.

I trust my internal signals but I'm struggling to listen and act on them. I'm

having more trouble with the stop than the go (I have NO problem eating when I'm

hungry- although since I know I have a limited hunger I get stressed that I'm

not going to eat something that will satisfy me, and that I will regret the

choice I've made after I've already passed my fullness limit- too little hunger

and too many things I want to eat!)