RE: My vacation.........

July 24, 2001

, I'm sorry you had a rough vacation. I know too well the way you are feeling... But, guess what!! We will be your support system as you go through your six months dieting and then the procedure. I see what you are talking about with wanting to wait another year so you can be happy with EVERY aspect of the wedding... including how you looked. I know you will still look beautiful whether you do it now or later, but you have to do what you know you will be happy with. ((((HUGS)))) Amy 24w 5d 10 hours left!!! My vacation......... Hello*!!!!! well I am back to work now........I missed everyone and can't wait to read through the mails......{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I hope everyone had a much better weekend then I did. Let me first say that my vacation started and ended the same day. I thought we were going to Coldwater MI (lower/middle of the state near ohio/indiana), but BOb surprised me and we ended up over on the other side of MI....in Benton Harbor right off lake MI. I was happy to be going somewhere new. WE get there and the cabin was nice (can't take our camper because we have no truck with a hitch....) but HOT....so we bring in our 3 fans we brought and unloaded everything. The off to the store for a few groceries.....took forever to find a store....came back and we were going swimming and this is where it went downhill. Well I have always been vague on how much I weigh, but let's just say I am a big girl....well the pool only had ladders to get in and out......and I am sorry I don't feel comfy at my size to be on a ladder (when especially it is wet)...so I sat on the side lines......and started feeling sorry for myself. Okay so Bob and Sierra had fun and I was trying my hardest to have fun....but well couldn't really. Now I have to go potty...and holy crap were the stalls small.....so I am sweating like a hog and now feeling worse...I was heading to the camp store when 2 teen boys started laughing at me and well I knew what they were talking about (my size)....so okay 3 defeats in under an hour. We head back to the cabin and I am near tears by now....walk in and I am roasting. You all know how hot it has been......well I guess I am used to my A/C and well fans were not cutting it (if anyone out there is reading this and only has fans and no a/c I really am sorry*!!!!!!!! {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} ) So I had it and broke down....I wanted to go home and I was nothing more then a fat slob......so Bob and sierra packed up while I was sobbing. On the way home I decided that I am looking into gastric bypass..(Bariatric center) I can't live my life like this anymore*!!!!!! I am tired of not being what I know I can be......or at least I think I can be. I want to do things that either I am affriad of my weight to do or other people make fun of the fat chick. I called yesterday and I have a 6 month "dieting" time that I have to spend with a DR before my ins will cover the procedure. I was upset at first about the 6 months, but then again I will have the procedure competely covered. So that is about it on me....Oh yeah and Bob and I are now talking about waiting until our 6th anniv to renew our vows.....I mean I hate to put all this money out and then hate how I felt or looked a year later you know. The only deposit we have out there is the hal;l and I am sure they will work with us......and that way the wedding will be on a SAT. Basically I am pretty down on myself right now.......but I have hit rock bottom (hahahahaha get it) and I can't stand to be like this. Bob has been nothing but supportive through this crisis in my life and I am so grateful to have him*!!!!!!!!! I am sorry this is long........but shit this vacation was to be fun and it turned out to be he**

July 24, 2001

I am so sorry you had a sucky vacation. That really stinks!! It

sounds like you have a really good plan of what you want to do. I'm

glad your family is so supportive.

Pam

July 24, 2001

,

I am so sorry that your vacation wasn't a fun one. It sounds like you have

a plan though and you'll be amazed how just something that simple, a plan,

will lift your spirits. To know you are working on it does wonders for you

pysche, I think. Something I found real useful when losing weight was GUM!

Well, I actually didn't do it to help lose weight, but I was chewing it at

that time because I was also quitting smoking. Looking back now, I think

the gum helped in both respects. Just thought I'd share that with you. I

hope you are feeling a little better about yourself today {{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

-AmyR

July 24, 2001

:

I meant to say one more thing. i am glad Bob &

Sierra understood!! You are very fortunate to have such

caing people who love you!! Hugs, Dana r. :)

July 24, 2001

:

I meant to say one more thing. i am glad Bob &

Sierra understood!! You are very fortunate to have such

caing people who love you!! Hugs, Dana r. :)

July 24, 2001

:

I meant to say one more thing. i am glad Bob &

Sierra understood!! You are very fortunate to have such

caing people who love you!! Hugs, Dana r. :)

July 24, 2001

, Honey, I am sooo sorry that you had such a horrible time. I am positive that you are being harder on yourself than you should but understand that it is hard to think + when you don't feel +! I wish I would of been there for you when those very stupid, jerky, laughed...I would of told them what they could do!!!{{{{{{{{{{{{{[HUG}}}}}}}}}}} Some people just are not worth it!!! Girl, you have more going for you than any of those close-minded people do and I KNOW that about you, even in the short time I have talked to you!! You know you have all of our support as you go through the 6 months diet and procedure....time will go quicker than you think. Like I said, you already are ahead of the game, b/c you have such a loving and supportive dh and Sierra!! (smile) You hold your head high...you are doing a good thing and though it might be hard, you can succeed!! BTW, sorry you couldn't bring your camper....have you heard from the ins. co.? Take care. I hope the week goes better for you. Get more from the Web. FREE MSN Explorer download : http://explorer.msn.com

July 25, 2001

!! I am so sorry your trip ended up that way!! It is unbearably

hot here too. With humidity the heat index is about 110 degrees, the

only way you can survive it is to be in the a/c or in the water. I have

to admit, I did the same thing on our Memorial day weekend campout, I

went and spent one night and bawled the next morning and took off for

home with Mikaela and spent the next day there alone with the baby. My

trip sounded alot like Dana's, stressful, camper to small, kids wanting

things.....see and mine was that when alot of mess and clutter is

involved I go crazy too!! Anyway, sweetie, you are such a wonderful

person and I want you to feel good about yourself. Take your weight

loss one day at a time. I want you to be healthy and happy with a

positive self image. You can do it !! Take care of yourself, ok?

Vicki

OneQueen@... wrote:

>

> Hello*!!!!! well I am back to work now........I missed everyone and can't

> wait to read through the mails......

> {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I hope everyone had a much

> better weekend then I did. Let me first say that my vacation started and

> ended the same day. I thought we were going to Coldwater MI (lower/middle of

> the state near ohio/indiana), but BOb surprised me and we ended up over on

> the other side of MI....in Benton Harbor right off lake MI. I was happy to

> be going somewhere new. WE get there and the cabin was nice (can't take our

> camper because we have no truck with a hitch....) but HOT....so we bring in

> our 3 fans we brought and unloaded everything. The off to the store for a

> few groceries.....took forever to find a store....came back and we were going

> swimming and this is where it went downhill. Well I have always been vague

> on how much I weigh, but let's just say I am a big girl....well the pool only

> had ladders to get in and out......and I am sorry I don't feel comfy at my

> size to be on a ladder (when especially it is wet)...so I sat on the side

> lines......and started feeling sorry for myself. Okay so Bob and Sierra had

> fun and I was trying my hardest to have fun....but well couldn't really. Now

> I have to go potty...and holy crap were the stalls small.....so I am sweating

> like a hog and now feeling worse...I was heading to the camp store when 2

> teen boys started laughing at me and well I knew what they were talking about

> (my size)....so okay 3 defeats in under an hour. We head back to the cabin

> and I am near tears by now....walk in and I am roasting. You all know how

> hot it has been......well I guess I am used to my A/C and well fans were not

> cutting it (if anyone out there is reading this and only has fans and no a/c

> I really am sorry*!!!!!!!! {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} ) So I had it

> and broke down....I wanted to go home and I was nothing more then a fat

> slob......so Bob and sierra packed up while I was sobbing. On the way home I

> decided that I am looking into gastric bypass..(Bariatric center) I can't

> live my life like this anymore*!!!!!! I am tired of not being what I know I

> can be......or at least I think I can be. I want to do things that either I

> am affriad of my weight to do or other people make fun of the fat chick. I

> called yesterday and I have a 6 month " dieting " time that I have to spend

> with a DR before my ins will cover the procedure. I was upset at first about

> the 6 months, but then again I will have the procedure competely covered. So

> that is about it on me....Oh yeah and Bob and I are now talking about waiting

> until our 6th anniv to renew our vows.....I mean I hate to put all this money

> out and then hate how I felt or looked a year later you know. The only

> deposit we have out there is the hal;l and I am sure they will work with

> us......and that way the wedding will be on a SAT. Basically I am pretty

> down on myself right now.......but I have hit rock bottom (hahahahaha get

> it) and I can't stand to be like this. Bob has been nothing but supportive

> through this crisis in my life and I am so grateful to have him*!!!!!!!!! I

> am sorry this is long........but shit this vacation was to be fun and it

> turned out to be he**

>

July 25, 2001