Contemplating contact with Nada and BPD sister after nearly 2 years of NC-help!

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Hi everyone,

It's been a while since I've visited this group. But it's b/c I've had a

wonderful past 2 years of drama-free living! My husband is amazing, 2 young

children who are healthy and adorable and I have been growing emotionally. I

have some great friends who I trust completely. I've learned to be cautious

when making new friends and instictively feel the need to run the other way when

I meet someone new who seems at all interested in drama or gossip.

My nada 'disowned me' 2 yrs ago after I located my father who left when I was

young. She'd always told my sister and I that he never paid child support, and

if we ever contacted him she'd disown us. I went to my therepist the day after

my big conversation with nada and my therepist let it slip that she was certain

my mother had BPD. And my sister likely too. I called my sister to try and work

things out, she raged like CRAZY at me. After that I blocked both sister and

nada's emails and phone calls. A few emails have trickled in from sister over

the past 2 yrs, in the nature of blaming me, " how could you cut your family off

like this... " .

I frequently think of my mom and sister and question my decision for NC. I

question it b/c in my mind being a 'good person' which I strive to be, isn't

someone who is cut off from her family. Yesterday on Thanksgiving, my sister

emailed a one line " Happy Thankgsiving " .

I have changed tremendously over the past 2 yrs and wonder if I am different

enough and strong enough to reconnect with them. I mean I guess I know I am, but

is the price of the connection worth the emotional energy? Do I hate being

without any reletives enough to bring that back into my life?

You folks reading this are the only people who truly understand how much it

totally sucks not having any family. After I contacted my dad, he turned into a

reglious wacko and I haven't since talked to him. So I've had not a single

relative on my side for 2 yrs. I don't like it!

I need to hear from those who have contact and have managed to do so in a way

that leaves you free from emotional distress. I need to hear some inspiring

stories that it is possible and some tips on how to make it work.

Thank you!!

xoxo, brooke