Guest guest Posted August 3, 2011 Report Share Posted August 3, 2011 Kayla, welcome. I was so excited when I got to the end of you post and read about the toast in the toaster, and that you acknowledged that success. Be gentle with yourself and kind. It sounds like you have some foods, like cookies, on the forbidden list. I wonder if you gave yourself permission to eat them, they wouldn't be so tempting. You did say that after gazing at the cookies for 2 hours,you had one and it didn't even taste good. I wonder if you could see that as an important lesson without judgement, instead of judging yourself as all " messed " up. I think you are doing a great job and you are so right, it is a journey, one small step at a time. Keep in touch. Sandy I'm a returning member named Kayla and I'd just like to confess/share on my small step towards becoming an intuitive eater. (I restarted my IE journey less than a month ago after doing my own thing for a year): Today I went out with family and had two and a half tacos and some tortilla chips. I hadn't eaten much earlier in the day, so even though I ate more than I would have liked, I wasn't sweating it too much...yet. We get to my parents' house and after stealing glances at a cookie for two hours over conversation, I have a cookie. It wasn't even good. Now I'm feeling like I " messed up. " Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus. When I feel like I've " messed up, " I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable. After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this. It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 3, 2011 Report Share Posted August 3, 2011 Kayla, welcome. I was so excited when I got to the end of you post and read about the toast in the toaster, and that you acknowledged that success. Be gentle with yourself and kind. It sounds like you have some foods, like cookies, on the forbidden list. I wonder if you gave yourself permission to eat them, they wouldn't be so tempting. You did say that after gazing at the cookies for 2 hours,you had one and it didn't even taste good. I wonder if you could see that as an important lesson without judgement, instead of judging yourself as all " messed " up. I think you are doing a great job and you are so right, it is a journey, one small step at a time. Keep in touch. Sandy I'm a returning member named Kayla and I'd just like to confess/share on my small step towards becoming an intuitive eater. (I restarted my IE journey less than a month ago after doing my own thing for a year): Today I went out with family and had two and a half tacos and some tortilla chips. I hadn't eaten much earlier in the day, so even though I ate more than I would have liked, I wasn't sweating it too much...yet. We get to my parents' house and after stealing glances at a cookie for two hours over conversation, I have a cookie. It wasn't even good. Now I'm feeling like I " messed up. " Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus. When I feel like I've " messed up, " I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable. After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this. It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 3, 2011 Report Share Posted August 3, 2011 Kayla, welcome. I was so excited when I got to the end of you post and read about the toast in the toaster, and that you acknowledged that success. Be gentle with yourself and kind. It sounds like you have some foods, like cookies, on the forbidden list. I wonder if you gave yourself permission to eat them, they wouldn't be so tempting. You did say that after gazing at the cookies for 2 hours,you had one and it didn't even taste good. I wonder if you could see that as an important lesson without judgement, instead of judging yourself as all " messed " up. I think you are doing a great job and you are so right, it is a journey, one small step at a time. Keep in touch. Sandy I'm a returning member named Kayla and I'd just like to confess/share on my small step towards becoming an intuitive eater. (I restarted my IE journey less than a month ago after doing my own thing for a year): Today I went out with family and had two and a half tacos and some tortilla chips. I hadn't eaten much earlier in the day, so even though I ate more than I would have liked, I wasn't sweating it too much...yet. We get to my parents' house and after stealing glances at a cookie for two hours over conversation, I have a cookie. It wasn't even good. Now I'm feeling like I " messed up. " Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus. When I feel like I've " messed up, " I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable. After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this. It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 3, 2011 Report Share Posted August 3, 2011 Welcome Kayla! Thanks for sharing your resumption of your IE journey with us. One of the things I so like about IE is that its not about failure or success. That type of black and white thinking is what dieting is all about. Lovely to hear that you had a peace with (from?) food moment. Those bits of grace are precious and we all appreciate hearing of these. Take care, hang in with us and here's to a happy IE journey for us all! BEST to you, Katcha IEing since March 2007 > > I'm a returning member named Kayla and I'd just like to confess/share on my small step towards becoming an intuitive eater. (I restarted my IE journey less than a month ago after doing my own thing for a year): > > Today I went out with family and had two and a half tacos and some tortilla chips. I hadn't eaten much earlier in the day, so even though I ate more than I would have liked, I wasn't sweating it too much...yet. We get to my parents' house and after stealing glances at a cookie for two hours over conversation, I have a cookie. It wasn't even good. Now I'm feeling like I " messed up. " > > Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus. > > When I feel like I've " messed up, " I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable. After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this. > > It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right? > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 3, 2011 Report Share Posted August 3, 2011 Welcome Kayla! Thanks for sharing your resumption of your IE journey with us. One of the things I so like about IE is that its not about failure or success. That type of black and white thinking is what dieting is all about. Lovely to hear that you had a peace with (from?) food moment. Those bits of grace are precious and we all appreciate hearing of these. Take care, hang in with us and here's to a happy IE journey for us all! BEST to you, Katcha IEing since March 2007 > > I'm a returning member named Kayla and I'd just like to confess/share on my small step towards becoming an intuitive eater. (I restarted my IE journey less than a month ago after doing my own thing for a year): > > Today I went out with family and had two and a half tacos and some tortilla chips. I hadn't eaten much earlier in the day, so even though I ate more than I would have liked, I wasn't sweating it too much...yet. We get to my parents' house and after stealing glances at a cookie for two hours over conversation, I have a cookie. It wasn't even good. Now I'm feeling like I " messed up. " > > Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus. > > When I feel like I've " messed up, " I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable. After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this. > > It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right? > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 3, 2011 Report Share Posted August 3, 2011 Good for you, Kayla. I think this is a huge success. I'm a returning member named Kayla and I'd just like to confess/share on my small step towards becoming an intuitive eater. (I restarted my IE journey less than a month ago after doing my own thing for a year): Today I went out with family and had two and a half tacos and some tortilla chips. I hadn't eaten much earlier in the day, so even though I ate more than I would have liked, I wasn't sweating it too much...yet. We get to my parents' house and after stealing glances at a cookie for two hours over conversation, I have a cookie. It wasn't even good. Now I'm feeling like I " messed up. " Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus. When I feel like I've " messed up, " I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable. After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this. It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 3, 2011 Report Share Posted August 3, 2011 Good for you, Kayla. I think this is a huge success. I'm a returning member named Kayla and I'd just like to confess/share on my small step towards becoming an intuitive eater. (I restarted my IE journey less than a month ago after doing my own thing for a year): Today I went out with family and had two and a half tacos and some tortilla chips. I hadn't eaten much earlier in the day, so even though I ate more than I would have liked, I wasn't sweating it too much...yet. We get to my parents' house and after stealing glances at a cookie for two hours over conversation, I have a cookie. It wasn't even good. Now I'm feeling like I " messed up. " Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus. When I feel like I've " messed up, " I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable. After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this. It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 3, 2011 Report Share Posted August 3, 2011 Good for you, Kayla. I think this is a huge success. I'm a returning member named Kayla and I'd just like to confess/share on my small step towards becoming an intuitive eater. (I restarted my IE journey less than a month ago after doing my own thing for a year): Today I went out with family and had two and a half tacos and some tortilla chips. I hadn't eaten much earlier in the day, so even though I ate more than I would have liked, I wasn't sweating it too much...yet. We get to my parents' house and after stealing glances at a cookie for two hours over conversation, I have a cookie. It wasn't even good. Now I'm feeling like I " messed up. " Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus. When I feel like I've " messed up, " I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable. After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this. It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 3, 2011 Report Share Posted August 3, 2011 Right!!!! It's definitely about the journey. I don't see how you screwed up! You caught yourself getting ready to binge and you chose to make a better choice by walking. THAT is a victory and not a defeat! Good job From: ruffruffgrowl@...To: "IntuitiveEating Support" <IntuitiveEating_Support >Sent: Wednesday, August 3, 2011 2:47:35 AMSubject: Progress Post I'm a returning member named Kayla and I'd just like to confess/share on my small step towards becoming an intuitive eater. (I restarted my IE journey less than a month ago after doing my own thing for a year):Today I went out with family and had two and a half tacos and some tortilla chips. I hadn't eaten much earlier in the day, so even though I ate more than I would have liked, I wasn't sweating it too much...yet. We get to my parents' house and after stealing glances at a cookie for two hours over conversation, I have a cookie. It wasn't even good. Now I'm feeling like I "messed up."Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus. When I feel like I've "messed up," I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable. After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this.It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 3, 2011 Report Share Posted August 3, 2011 Kayla, GOOD JOB! You stopped after you'd already begun the process to eat more when you knew you weren't hungry and were just in that, " Well, I already blew it for today! " mode. It was just an episode in your past. All we have is this present moment, and when we realize we've overeaten or eaten compulsively, all we have to do is wait, wait until we are hungry again. No more all or nothing thinking! Just live, just this moment, and take care of ourselves in this present moment. Good job. Jane > > I'm a returning member named Kayla and I'd just like to confess/share on my small step towards becoming an intuitive eater. (I restarted my IE journey less than a month ago after doing my own thing for a year): > > Today I went out with family and had two and a half tacos and some tortilla chips. I hadn't eaten much earlier in the day, so even though I ate more than I would have liked, I wasn't sweating it too much...yet. We get to my parents' house and after stealing glances at a cookie for two hours over conversation, I have a cookie. It wasn't even good. Now I'm feeling like I " messed up. " > > Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus. > > When I feel like I've " messed up, " I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable. After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this. > > It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right? > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 16, 2011 Report Share Posted August 16, 2011 Kayla, hi and nice to meet you. I enjoyed your post and would like to comment on some things you said. You ate a cookie that you realized didn't taste that great. When I get to that point now, I get rid of what's in my mouth in a napkin. Why waste calories on something that's not tasting that good? But the idea that you kept glancing at the sweets made me wonder if you were really full. Because I notice that when I'm REALLY FULL (not sickly full, but really full), I can look at temptations and not indulge. You got really full toward the end of the eating process you describe, and then you felt you were going overboardly full and stopped and that's a good thing! Progress! There's nothing wrong with telling someone that you will wait to have a cookie later instead of feeling compelled to have the cookie with them, but that happens to me when I'm eating with others, that is a big problem for me now. I can't say no to a large extent when I'm eating with others, although I am learning I can stop and get rid of much of my meal now (it took time to learn this) and I don't always take it home with me because if it's not that good I probably will look at it at home and not eat it anyway."Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus."Sounds like you were hungry. "When I feel like I've "messed up," I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable."That's where I"m learning to stop eating, when simple actions become difficult. I don't want to go there and have recently become more aware of this."After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this. It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right?"Yep, that is true, because if destinations worked, we'd all be there, right? We WANT to be at the destination but most of us are not and if destinations worked, everybody with eating problems would be lasting it out in this world on a DIET. Which I know for myself isn't going to work. Been there, done that and realize that I can't and don't want to do it again. No, this is a much better way for me to "get there." :-) Great post and keep writing. Yes, you did succeed and will succeed in bigger and better ways in the future! Tai Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 16, 2011 Report Share Posted August 16, 2011 Kayla, hi and nice to meet you. I enjoyed your post and would like to comment on some things you said. You ate a cookie that you realized didn't taste that great. When I get to that point now, I get rid of what's in my mouth in a napkin. Why waste calories on something that's not tasting that good? But the idea that you kept glancing at the sweets made me wonder if you were really full. Because I notice that when I'm REALLY FULL (not sickly full, but really full), I can look at temptations and not indulge. You got really full toward the end of the eating process you describe, and then you felt you were going overboardly full and stopped and that's a good thing! Progress! There's nothing wrong with telling someone that you will wait to have a cookie later instead of feeling compelled to have the cookie with them, but that happens to me when I'm eating with others, that is a big problem for me now. I can't say no to a large extent when I'm eating with others, although I am learning I can stop and get rid of much of my meal now (it took time to learn this) and I don't always take it home with me because if it's not that good I probably will look at it at home and not eat it anyway."Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus."Sounds like you were hungry. "When I feel like I've "messed up," I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable."That's where I"m learning to stop eating, when simple actions become difficult. I don't want to go there and have recently become more aware of this."After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this. It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right?"Yep, that is true, because if destinations worked, we'd all be there, right? We WANT to be at the destination but most of us are not and if destinations worked, everybody with eating problems would be lasting it out in this world on a DIET. Which I know for myself isn't going to work. Been there, done that and realize that I can't and don't want to do it again. No, this is a much better way for me to "get there." :-) Great post and keep writing. Yes, you did succeed and will succeed in bigger and better ways in the future! Tai Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 16, 2011 Report Share Posted August 16, 2011 Kayla, hi and nice to meet you. I enjoyed your post and would like to comment on some things you said. You ate a cookie that you realized didn't taste that great. When I get to that point now, I get rid of what's in my mouth in a napkin. Why waste calories on something that's not tasting that good? But the idea that you kept glancing at the sweets made me wonder if you were really full. Because I notice that when I'm REALLY FULL (not sickly full, but really full), I can look at temptations and not indulge. You got really full toward the end of the eating process you describe, and then you felt you were going overboardly full and stopped and that's a good thing! Progress! There's nothing wrong with telling someone that you will wait to have a cookie later instead of feeling compelled to have the cookie with them, but that happens to me when I'm eating with others, that is a big problem for me now. I can't say no to a large extent when I'm eating with others, although I am learning I can stop and get rid of much of my meal now (it took time to learn this) and I don't always take it home with me because if it's not that good I probably will look at it at home and not eat it anyway."Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus."Sounds like you were hungry. "When I feel like I've "messed up," I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was uncomfortable."That's where I"m learning to stop eating, when simple actions become difficult. I don't want to go there and have recently become more aware of this."After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this. It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the journey, not the destination, right?"Yep, that is true, because if destinations worked, we'd all be there, right? We WANT to be at the destination but most of us are not and if destinations worked, everybody with eating problems would be lasting it out in this world on a DIET. Which I know for myself isn't going to work. Been there, done that and realize that I can't and don't want to do it again. No, this is a much better way for me to "get there." :-) Great post and keep writing. Yes, you did succeed and will succeed in bigger and better ways in the future! Tai Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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