The KO Superego

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So yesterday, I was asking my T about which part of my mind I have trouble

with. I've done a bunch of reading because I wanted to understand it. I

thought I would share it with the group and see if it helps anyone else:

Your psyche has 3 parts. I can't remember if this is Jung or Freud who

" discoverd " this, but one of those old psychologist dudes. Here's my

analysis for the KO:

ID - this is your inner child. Mine is a-ok now, alive and kicking.

Personally, mine is extremly mischevious, silly, dorky and lately is longing

to be the boss and not have to put up with other people's stupid decisions.

I don't know if anyone cares, but I have a personal symbol of my ID. Her

name is Scout and she lives with me. She is a Welsh Terrier. She is curious,

stubborn, feisty, adorable and incredibly loving. She went with me to my

last T appt, and the T saw an extremely strong attachment between the two of

us. That is good if she's my pet, but she's also represents my ID, my inner

child, so that's very good. This probably sounds dumb, but it took me at

least 6 weeks of therapy to figure this much out. I like my inner child a

lot And during this 6 week period when I was trying to figure out why

Scout needed to be involved in my therapy, she started sleeping in my arms

at night like a baby - I mean all night, 7 or 8 hours. That's how I knew I

was on the right track. My ID responded positively to what I was doing.

Ego - This is the part I understand the least. This is the planner, the

organizer, the part that lives in the day to day. She gets you to work on

time because your inner child wants money to buy a new toy or dress. Please

add if you guys understand more. My T says I almost don't have one - but I'm

extremly good at organizing time, people, things like that, so it must be in

there somewhere.I guess I think of it as the Post or Miss Manners of

the psyche. The ID wants a cookie, and the Ego says " ok Id, have a cookie,

but make sure you say please. " The Ego helps the Id gets what it wants

without breaking the law or being rude, is how I understand it.

Ok now for the special part. The one that causes all my problems.

Superego - This is your inner preacher or parent. She tells you that you are

a bad girl. Don't eat the whole cake, you pig (wow she sounds like nada).

You don't deserve the new dress you saved for for 3 months because you are a

selfish bitch. And for me, this is when the tape plays. For instance, T and

I were talking about how I'm realizing, wow, my childhood really was bad. As

soon as those words come out the superego says to me " What? You think you

had it bad? You don't even know what bad is. I'll give you something to cry

about! " which sounds just like something my dad would have said when I was a

kid. So AMAZING, now I know what part of my psyche is the problem. Next

step, I learn a new tape for it to play. Since I know that my ID is a blast,

with a greedy but good heart and has a lot to offer, the superego must be

the wrong one.

Let me know if this helps at all. I feel like a dork that I needed to figure

it out in this much detail, ha ha