Re: I'm going to see a counselor

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I'm new here but saw your post and I just wanted to give you kuddos for your

very brave and excellent decision. Counseling brought me back from the brink of

a near nervous breakdown. My NADA was living in my home at the same time my

suspected BPSO and I were together. Two of them at once, OMG! Were it not for

counseling, I wouldn't have made it. My counselor thinking they might both be

BP suggested I get one out of my home and then wait, heal a bit and then deal

with the other. For a short time they both went into vindictive strike out

mode. Each feeding off the other's hatred and blaming me. My counselor kept me

going, helped me deal with the past, the then, present and got me back on my

feet in a healthy way without having to be totally drugged up and succumbing to

panic attacks. After they were both out of my daily life, the panic attacks

miraculously disappeared and I learned that there had to be NC with either of

them ever again if I wanted emotional stability for me.

I'm so, so glad that you are making a good and loving choice for you. There is

so much hope ahead of you and I'm so happy for you. This journey may not be

easy but its worth it. You deserve to heal and be happy.

Many blessings to you.

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> Dear WTO Group,

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> I have decided that I will start counseling in January. I used to think that

I would " have " to go to counseling if I got really bad off or dangerously

depressed again. Now I think I will choose to go - in order to be better than I

am now.

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> I would like to thank so many of you for mentioning your therapists and the

help they have given. I can see that going to counseling is a strength, not a

weakness. I can see this because of how strong you all are.

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> I saw counselors as a teenager when suicidal and hospitalized. And I went a

couple of years ago for behavioral sessions in marriage counseling. I'm

convinced that saved our marriage. But I have not gone to work through this KO

stuff, since I have been avoiding the whole issue like the plague my whole life

pretending like it doesn't exist. I can think of nothing more horrible than

sitting in an office talking for hours about the person I hate most in this

life. Just the fact that I feel actual hatred is a warning signal. Someone

mentioned this about anger being a flashing red light to tell us something is

wrong.

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> I think it's time to bite the bullet on this one, though. So I am going to

call for an appointment and start after the new year. Thank you all.

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> +Coal Miner's Daughter

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