Re: A Time of Letting Go (A Poem to Share) :)

[Guest guest]

Wow! letting go! It was a lot easier when I was LC and fada lived in another

county. We brought him to live with us because we thought he was dying. I know

now some of that was just the helpless waif. He could have lived alone a while

longer if he didn't sit around and just feel sorry for himself all day. But I am

learning even if he lives with us, that I can " let go " of a lot of things if I

just keep control of my own emotions. Thanks Jaie, for the poem.

Kay

>

> I would be justified in feeling a victim of her vulgar words

> I would be right to blame her for the neglect and the pain

> I would be valid in demonstrating the hatred she shows for me

> I would be right in calling her wrong

>

> I could feel sorry for myself and hold out hope

> for a mother I always wanted and never had

> I could feel cheated and wronged by the Universe

> for the woman who manipulates and hates unless you do her bidding

>

> I may be who she raised me to be

> But if I stay that way, the consequences are all on me

> I cannot hold hatred and self-loathing in my heart

> In her wicked ways, she at least taught me that's not a good idea.

>

> She may not have ever known how to love

> And I may have learned it by knowing what not to do with a child

> But I did learn to love, to honor and hold my loved ones as they are

> And not as I demand they should be to fill a void within me

>

> She taught me that vengeance is not only wrong

> But one of the ugly abominations of this world

> She taught me that seeing through my distorted mind

> Was one of the worst sins I could commit against God

>

> For now that I know what I just cannot be

> By what she intended to teach me

> I realize I cannot be like that

> I cannot disappoint my Maker and loved ones so

>

> Although in my life I have suffered consequences for her actions

> I have been wounded by her so very many inactions

> And I'd be justified in holding on to anger and fear

> And spending the rest of my life feeling emotionally unsafe...

>

> I cannot and will not

> Although I may be justified in holding on to all this pain

> Its high time, I think

> That I completely let go

>

> I am no longer a silent wounded hero-rescuer in a child

> I am a healthy, happy and well-adjusted adult

> I no longer need to protect myself by people pleasing for love

> I've learned the love inside of me is all I need

>

> It's no longer a time to recount horror stories

> Or belabor years of agony and pain

> Or mishandled anger and denial

> Its a time of letting go.

>

[Guest guest]

Thank you Kay and Mia. I had to write it so I could do it. If I don't let

go, I become her by default. That is one of my greatest fears. So, I have to

let go now and forgive her...not for her sake, but for mine.

I would not be able to let go so easily were I in constant contact or even

limited contact. Whenever she has my number or address I just get hatemail,

hate texts and phone calls all night long. She never sleeps any more.

I wrote this one right after she left while still shaken, still suffering post

traumatic event syndrome for her unstoppable insanity...(art in any form is good

- whatever you can do to create and get in touch with your emotions, do it, do

it, do it some more. )

Vortex of Despair

by *Compassion81

Fathomless depths of despair.

Like a vortex...

Your self-pity seeks to drag...

Everyone down, deeper and deeper.

You have personified

The poor me and refuse to wake up.

You refuse the loving hands seeking...

To pull you out.

You write scathing insults

To all who will not come to you...

On your specified terms.

You cry out for family.

You scream that you are that...

And no one will return the sentiment,

And yet we're the ones feeding you,

Sheltering you from the mess you've made of your life.

You demand that we give you love and affection,

And refuse to acknowledge our efforts.

You refuse the resources free of charge,

That might help save your life.

You have burned every bridge...

Crying all the while everyone has abandoned you.

You won't even consider the reality...

That it is you who has abandoned you.

And now you lay it all on me.

I'm your only hope.

I'm your only family now...

And so you turn your anger on me.

I've helped as much as I could...

And now, not only do you bite the hand that feeds you,

You rip my heart out and scream at me...

For not loving you enough and not showing it enough.

You write me scathing letters,

Telling me how selfish and self-centered and lazy I am.

How I do not know how to be family,

And I am left incredulous and sobbing.

I invited you into my home to help you...

I've spent my savings...

I've spent my last drop of emotion and sanity...

And you continue just to insult me.

Then, you sober up…...

…and try to tell me you said none of those things.

That I was too stupid to understand your words,

And that if I loved you more I would get it.

Here's one for you...

I've sacrificed my children's happiness

I've sacrificed my future husband's happiness

I've sacrificed my sanity, for you, to help you.

I'm sorry that's not good enough for you.

If this is not family enough for you,

You are free to go find another one...

I am turning my back on you.

Not just for today,

But until you have sought the treatment you obviously need.

No mother would ever seek to hurt a child...

As you have hurt me.

You must go now...

And I will heal my family...

And I will heal my pain...

And I will have my sanctuary again.

> > >

> > > I would be justified in feeling a victim of her vulgar words

> > > I would be right to blame her for the neglect and the pain

> > > I would be valid in demonstrating the hatred she shows for me

> > > I would be right in calling her wrong

> > >

> > > I could feel sorry for myself and hold out hope

> > > for a mother I always wanted and never had

> > > I could feel cheated and wronged by the Universe

> > > for the woman who manipulates and hates unless you do her bidding

> > >

> > > I may be who she raised me to be

> > > But if I stay that way, the consequences are all on me

> > > I cannot hold hatred and self-loathing in my heart

> > > In her wicked ways, she at least taught me that's not a good idea.

> > >

> > > She may not have ever known how to love

> > > And I may have learned it by knowing what not to do with a child

> > > But I did learn to love, to honor and hold my loved ones as they are

> > > And not as I demand they should be to fill a void within me

> > >

> > > She taught me that vengeance is not only wrong

> > > But one of the ugly abominations of this world

> > > She taught me that seeing through my distorted mind

> > > Was one of the worst sins I could commit against God

> > >

> > > For now that I know what I just cannot be

> > > By what she intended to teach me

> > > I realize I cannot be like that

> > > I cannot disappoint my Maker and loved ones so

> > >

> > > Although in my life I have suffered consequences for her actions

> > > I have been wounded by her so very many inactions

> > > And I'd be justified in holding on to anger and fear

> > > And spending the rest of my life feeling emotionally unsafe...

> > >

> > > I cannot and will not

> > > Although I may be justified in holding on to all this pain

> > > Its high time, I think

> > > That I completely let go

> > >

> > > I am no longer a silent wounded hero-rescuer in a child

> > > I am a healthy, happy and well-adjusted adult

> > > I no longer need to protect myself by people pleasing for love

> > > I've learned the love inside of me is all I need

> > >

> > > It's no longer a time to recount horror stories

> > > Or belabor years of agony and pain

> > > Or mishandled anger and denial

> > > Its a time of letting go.

> > >

> >

> >

> >

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thank you Kay and Mia. I had to write it so I could do it. If I don't let

go, I become her by default. That is one of my greatest fears. So, I have to

let go now and forgive her...not for her sake, but for mine.

I would not be able to let go so easily were I in constant contact or even

limited contact. Whenever she has my number or address I just get hatemail,

hate texts and phone calls all night long. She never sleeps any more.

I wrote this one right after she left while still shaken, still suffering post

traumatic event syndrome for her unstoppable insanity...(art in any form is good

- whatever you can do to create and get in touch with your emotions, do it, do

it, do it some more. )

Vortex of Despair

by *Compassion81

Fathomless depths of despair.

Like a vortex...

Your self-pity seeks to drag...

Everyone down, deeper and deeper.

You have personified

The poor me and refuse to wake up.

You refuse the loving hands seeking...

To pull you out.

You write scathing insults

To all who will not come to you...

On your specified terms.

You cry out for family.

You scream that you are that...

And no one will return the sentiment,

And yet we're the ones feeding you,

Sheltering you from the mess you've made of your life.

You demand that we give you love and affection,

And refuse to acknowledge our efforts.

You refuse the resources free of charge,

That might help save your life.

You have burned every bridge...

Crying all the while everyone has abandoned you.

You won't even consider the reality...

That it is you who has abandoned you.

And now you lay it all on me.

I'm your only hope.

I'm your only family now...

And so you turn your anger on me.

I've helped as much as I could...

And now, not only do you bite the hand that feeds you,

You rip my heart out and scream at me...

For not loving you enough and not showing it enough.

You write me scathing letters,

Telling me how selfish and self-centered and lazy I am.

How I do not know how to be family,

And I am left incredulous and sobbing.

I invited you into my home to help you...

I've spent my savings...

I've spent my last drop of emotion and sanity...

And you continue just to insult me.

Then, you sober up…...

…and try to tell me you said none of those things.

That I was too stupid to understand your words,

And that if I loved you more I would get it.

Here's one for you...

I've sacrificed my children's happiness

I've sacrificed my future husband's happiness

I've sacrificed my sanity, for you, to help you.

I'm sorry that's not good enough for you.

If this is not family enough for you,

You are free to go find another one...

I am turning my back on you.

Not just for today,

But until you have sought the treatment you obviously need.

No mother would ever seek to hurt a child...

As you have hurt me.

You must go now...

And I will heal my family...

And I will heal my pain...

And I will have my sanctuary again.

> > >

> > > I would be justified in feeling a victim of her vulgar words

> > > I would be right to blame her for the neglect and the pain

> > > I would be valid in demonstrating the hatred she shows for me

> > > I would be right in calling her wrong

> > >

> > > I could feel sorry for myself and hold out hope

> > > for a mother I always wanted and never had

> > > I could feel cheated and wronged by the Universe

> > > for the woman who manipulates and hates unless you do her bidding

> > >

> > > I may be who she raised me to be

> > > But if I stay that way, the consequences are all on me

> > > I cannot hold hatred and self-loathing in my heart

> > > In her wicked ways, she at least taught me that's not a good idea.

> > >

> > > She may not have ever known how to love

> > > And I may have learned it by knowing what not to do with a child

> > > But I did learn to love, to honor and hold my loved ones as they are

> > > And not as I demand they should be to fill a void within me

> > >

> > > She taught me that vengeance is not only wrong

> > > But one of the ugly abominations of this world

> > > She taught me that seeing through my distorted mind

> > > Was one of the worst sins I could commit against God

> > >

> > > For now that I know what I just cannot be

> > > By what she intended to teach me

> > > I realize I cannot be like that

> > > I cannot disappoint my Maker and loved ones so

> > >

> > > Although in my life I have suffered consequences for her actions

> > > I have been wounded by her so very many inactions

> > > And I'd be justified in holding on to anger and fear

> > > And spending the rest of my life feeling emotionally unsafe...

> > >

> > > I cannot and will not

> > > Although I may be justified in holding on to all this pain

> > > Its high time, I think

> > > That I completely let go

> > >

> > > I am no longer a silent wounded hero-rescuer in a child

> > > I am a healthy, happy and well-adjusted adult

> > > I no longer need to protect myself by people pleasing for love

> > > I've learned the love inside of me is all I need

> > >

> > > It's no longer a time to recount horror stories

> > > Or belabor years of agony and pain

> > > Or mishandled anger and denial

> > > Its a time of letting go.

> > >

> >

> >

> >

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Thank you Kay and Mia. I had to write it so I could do it. If I don't let

go, I become her by default. That is one of my greatest fears. So, I have to

let go now and forgive her...not for her sake, but for mine.

I would not be able to let go so easily were I in constant contact or even

limited contact. Whenever she has my number or address I just get hatemail,

hate texts and phone calls all night long. She never sleeps any more.

I wrote this one right after she left while still shaken, still suffering post

traumatic event syndrome for her unstoppable insanity...(art in any form is good

- whatever you can do to create and get in touch with your emotions, do it, do

it, do it some more. )

Vortex of Despair

by *Compassion81

Fathomless depths of despair.

Like a vortex...

Your self-pity seeks to drag...

Everyone down, deeper and deeper.

You have personified

The poor me and refuse to wake up.

You refuse the loving hands seeking...

To pull you out.

You write scathing insults

To all who will not come to you...

On your specified terms.

You cry out for family.

You scream that you are that...

And no one will return the sentiment,

And yet we're the ones feeding you,

Sheltering you from the mess you've made of your life.

You demand that we give you love and affection,

And refuse to acknowledge our efforts.

You refuse the resources free of charge,

That might help save your life.

You have burned every bridge...

Crying all the while everyone has abandoned you.

You won't even consider the reality...

That it is you who has abandoned you.

And now you lay it all on me.

I'm your only hope.

I'm your only family now...

And so you turn your anger on me.

I've helped as much as I could...

And now, not only do you bite the hand that feeds you,

You rip my heart out and scream at me...

For not loving you enough and not showing it enough.

You write me scathing letters,

Telling me how selfish and self-centered and lazy I am.

How I do not know how to be family,

And I am left incredulous and sobbing.

I invited you into my home to help you...

I've spent my savings...

I've spent my last drop of emotion and sanity...

And you continue just to insult me.

Then, you sober up…...

…and try to tell me you said none of those things.

That I was too stupid to understand your words,

And that if I loved you more I would get it.

Here's one for you...

I've sacrificed my children's happiness

I've sacrificed my future husband's happiness

I've sacrificed my sanity, for you, to help you.

I'm sorry that's not good enough for you.

If this is not family enough for you,

You are free to go find another one...

I am turning my back on you.

Not just for today,

But until you have sought the treatment you obviously need.

No mother would ever seek to hurt a child...

As you have hurt me.

You must go now...

And I will heal my family...

And I will heal my pain...

And I will have my sanctuary again.

> > >

> > > I would be justified in feeling a victim of her vulgar words

> > > I would be right to blame her for the neglect and the pain

> > > I would be valid in demonstrating the hatred she shows for me

> > > I would be right in calling her wrong

> > >

> > > I could feel sorry for myself and hold out hope

> > > for a mother I always wanted and never had

> > > I could feel cheated and wronged by the Universe

> > > for the woman who manipulates and hates unless you do her bidding

> > >

> > > I may be who she raised me to be

> > > But if I stay that way, the consequences are all on me

> > > I cannot hold hatred and self-loathing in my heart

> > > In her wicked ways, she at least taught me that's not a good idea.

> > >

> > > She may not have ever known how to love

> > > And I may have learned it by knowing what not to do with a child

> > > But I did learn to love, to honor and hold my loved ones as they are

> > > And not as I demand they should be to fill a void within me

> > >

> > > She taught me that vengeance is not only wrong

> > > But one of the ugly abominations of this world

> > > She taught me that seeing through my distorted mind

> > > Was one of the worst sins I could commit against God

> > >

> > > For now that I know what I just cannot be

> > > By what she intended to teach me

> > > I realize I cannot be like that

> > > I cannot disappoint my Maker and loved ones so

> > >

> > > Although in my life I have suffered consequences for her actions

> > > I have been wounded by her so very many inactions

> > > And I'd be justified in holding on to anger and fear

> > > And spending the rest of my life feeling emotionally unsafe...

> > >

> > > I cannot and will not

> > > Although I may be justified in holding on to all this pain

> > > Its high time, I think

> > > That I completely let go

> > >

> > > I am no longer a silent wounded hero-rescuer in a child

> > > I am a healthy, happy and well-adjusted adult

> > > I no longer need to protect myself by people pleasing for love

> > > I've learned the love inside of me is all I need

> > >

> > > It's no longer a time to recount horror stories

> > > Or belabor years of agony and pain

> > > Or mishandled anger and denial

> > > Its a time of letting go.

> > >

> >

> >

> >

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Poetry, art and journaling are such powerful healers - keep it up ladies, you

are an inspiration!

>

> I would be justified in feeling a victim of her vulgar words

> I would be right to blame her for the neglect and the pain

> I would be valid in demonstrating the hatred she shows for me

> I would be right in calling her wrong

>

> I could feel sorry for myself and hold out hope

> for a mother I always wanted and never had

> I could feel cheated and wronged by the Universe

> for the woman who manipulates and hates unless you do her bidding

>

> I may be who she raised me to be

> But if I stay that way, the consequences are all on me

> I cannot hold hatred and self-loathing in my heart

> In her wicked ways, she at least taught me that's not a good idea.

>

> She may not have ever known how to love

> And I may have learned it by knowing what not to do with a child

> But I did learn to love, to honor and hold my loved ones as they are

> And not as I demand they should be to fill a void within me

>

> She taught me that vengeance is not only wrong

> But one of the ugly abominations of this world

> She taught me that seeing through my distorted mind

> Was one of the worst sins I could commit against God

>

> For now that I know what I just cannot be

> By what she intended to teach me

> I realize I cannot be like that

> I cannot disappoint my Maker and loved ones so

>

> Although in my life I have suffered consequences for her actions

> I have been wounded by her so very many inactions

> And I'd be justified in holding on to anger and fear

> And spending the rest of my life feeling emotionally unsafe...

>

> I cannot and will not

> Although I may be justified in holding on to all this pain

> Its high time, I think

> That I completely let go

>

> I am no longer a silent wounded hero-rescuer in a child

> I am a healthy, happy and well-adjusted adult

> I no longer need to protect myself by people pleasing for love

> I've learned the love inside of me is all I need

>

> It's no longer a time to recount horror stories

> Or belabor years of agony and pain

> Or mishandled anger and denial

> Its a time of letting go.

>

[Guest guest]

Poetry, art and journaling are such powerful healers - keep it up ladies, you

are an inspiration!

>

> I would be justified in feeling a victim of her vulgar words

> I would be right to blame her for the neglect and the pain

> I would be valid in demonstrating the hatred she shows for me

> I would be right in calling her wrong

>

> I could feel sorry for myself and hold out hope

> for a mother I always wanted and never had

> I could feel cheated and wronged by the Universe

> for the woman who manipulates and hates unless you do her bidding

>

> I may be who she raised me to be

> But if I stay that way, the consequences are all on me

> I cannot hold hatred and self-loathing in my heart

> In her wicked ways, she at least taught me that's not a good idea.

>

> She may not have ever known how to love

> And I may have learned it by knowing what not to do with a child

> But I did learn to love, to honor and hold my loved ones as they are

> And not as I demand they should be to fill a void within me

>

> She taught me that vengeance is not only wrong

> But one of the ugly abominations of this world

> She taught me that seeing through my distorted mind

> Was one of the worst sins I could commit against God

>

> For now that I know what I just cannot be

> By what she intended to teach me

> I realize I cannot be like that

> I cannot disappoint my Maker and loved ones so

>

> Although in my life I have suffered consequences for her actions

> I have been wounded by her so very many inactions

> And I'd be justified in holding on to anger and fear

> And spending the rest of my life feeling emotionally unsafe...

>

> I cannot and will not

> Although I may be justified in holding on to all this pain

> Its high time, I think

> That I completely let go

>

> I am no longer a silent wounded hero-rescuer in a child

> I am a healthy, happy and well-adjusted adult

> I no longer need to protect myself by people pleasing for love

> I've learned the love inside of me is all I need

>

> It's no longer a time to recount horror stories

> Or belabor years of agony and pain

> Or mishandled anger and denial

> Its a time of letting go.

>

[Guest guest]

Beautiful. And so sadly true and WELL spoken. Thank you for sharing.

> > > >

> > > > I would be justified in feeling a victim of her vulgar words

> > > > I would be right to blame her for the neglect and the pain

> > > > I would be valid in demonstrating the hatred she shows for me

> > > > I would be right in calling her wrong

> > > >

> > > > I could feel sorry for myself and hold out hope

> > > > for a mother I always wanted and never had

> > > > I could feel cheated and wronged by the Universe

> > > > for the woman who manipulates and hates unless you do her bidding

> > > >

> > > > I may be who she raised me to be

> > > > But if I stay that way, the consequences are all on me

> > > > I cannot hold hatred and self-loathing in my heart

> > > > In her wicked ways, she at least taught me that's not a good idea.

> > > >

> > > > She may not have ever known how to love

> > > > And I may have learned it by knowing what not to do with a child

> > > > But I did learn to love, to honor and hold my loved ones as they are

> > > > And not as I demand they should be to fill a void within me

> > > >

> > > > She taught me that vengeance is not only wrong

> > > > But one of the ugly abominations of this world

> > > > She taught me that seeing through my distorted mind

> > > > Was one of the worst sins I could commit against God

> > > >

> > > > For now that I know what I just cannot be

> > > > By what she intended to teach me

> > > > I realize I cannot be like that

> > > > I cannot disappoint my Maker and loved ones so

> > > >

> > > > Although in my life I have suffered consequences for her actions

> > > > I have been wounded by her so very many inactions

> > > > And I'd be justified in holding on to anger and fear

> > > > And spending the rest of my life feeling emotionally unsafe...

> > > >

> > > > I cannot and will not

> > > > Although I may be justified in holding on to all this pain

> > > > Its high time, I think

> > > > That I completely let go

> > > >

> > > > I am no longer a silent wounded hero-rescuer in a child

> > > > I am a healthy, happy and well-adjusted adult

> > > > I no longer need to protect myself by people pleasing for love

> > > > I've learned the love inside of me is all I need

> > > >

> > > > It's no longer a time to recount horror stories

> > > > Or belabor years of agony and pain

> > > > Or mishandled anger and denial

> > > > Its a time of letting go.

> > > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Beautiful. And so sadly true and WELL spoken. Thank you for sharing.

> > > >

> > > > I would be justified in feeling a victim of her vulgar words

> > > > I would be right to blame her for the neglect and the pain

> > > > I would be valid in demonstrating the hatred she shows for me

> > > > I would be right in calling her wrong

> > > >

> > > > I could feel sorry for myself and hold out hope

> > > > for a mother I always wanted and never had

> > > > I could feel cheated and wronged by the Universe

> > > > for the woman who manipulates and hates unless you do her bidding

> > > >

> > > > I may be who she raised me to be

> > > > But if I stay that way, the consequences are all on me

> > > > I cannot hold hatred and self-loathing in my heart

> > > > In her wicked ways, she at least taught me that's not a good idea.

> > > >

> > > > She may not have ever known how to love

> > > > And I may have learned it by knowing what not to do with a child

> > > > But I did learn to love, to honor and hold my loved ones as they are

> > > > And not as I demand they should be to fill a void within me

> > > >

> > > > She taught me that vengeance is not only wrong

> > > > But one of the ugly abominations of this world

> > > > She taught me that seeing through my distorted mind

> > > > Was one of the worst sins I could commit against God

> > > >

> > > > For now that I know what I just cannot be

> > > > By what she intended to teach me

> > > > I realize I cannot be like that

> > > > I cannot disappoint my Maker and loved ones so

> > > >

> > > > Although in my life I have suffered consequences for her actions

> > > > I have been wounded by her so very many inactions

> > > > And I'd be justified in holding on to anger and fear

> > > > And spending the rest of my life feeling emotionally unsafe...

> > > >

> > > > I cannot and will not

> > > > Although I may be justified in holding on to all this pain

> > > > Its high time, I think

> > > > That I completely let go

> > > >

> > > > I am no longer a silent wounded hero-rescuer in a child

> > > > I am a healthy, happy and well-adjusted adult

> > > > I no longer need to protect myself by people pleasing for love

> > > > I've learned the love inside of me is all I need

> > > >

> > > > It's no longer a time to recount horror stories

> > > > Or belabor years of agony and pain

> > > > Or mishandled anger and denial

> > > > Its a time of letting go.

> > > >

> > >

> > >

> > >

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Beautiful. And so sadly true and WELL spoken. Thank you for sharing.

> > > >

> > > > I would be justified in feeling a victim of her vulgar words

> > > > I would be right to blame her for the neglect and the pain

> > > > I would be valid in demonstrating the hatred she shows for me

> > > > I would be right in calling her wrong

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> > > > I could feel sorry for myself and hold out hope

> > > > for a mother I always wanted and never had

> > > > I could feel cheated and wronged by the Universe

> > > > for the woman who manipulates and hates unless you do her bidding

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> > > > I may be who she raised me to be

> > > > But if I stay that way, the consequences are all on me

> > > > I cannot hold hatred and self-loathing in my heart

> > > > In her wicked ways, she at least taught me that's not a good idea.

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> > > > She may not have ever known how to love

> > > > And I may have learned it by knowing what not to do with a child

> > > > But I did learn to love, to honor and hold my loved ones as they are

> > > > And not as I demand they should be to fill a void within me

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> > > > She taught me that vengeance is not only wrong

> > > > But one of the ugly abominations of this world

> > > > She taught me that seeing through my distorted mind

> > > > Was one of the worst sins I could commit against God

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> > > > For now that I know what I just cannot be

> > > > By what she intended to teach me

> > > > I realize I cannot be like that

> > > > I cannot disappoint my Maker and loved ones so

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> > > > Although in my life I have suffered consequences for her actions

> > > > I have been wounded by her so very many inactions

> > > > And I'd be justified in holding on to anger and fear

> > > > And spending the rest of my life feeling emotionally unsafe...

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> > > > I cannot and will not

> > > > Although I may be justified in holding on to all this pain

> > > > Its high time, I think

> > > > That I completely let go

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> > > > I am no longer a silent wounded hero-rescuer in a child

> > > > I am a healthy, happy and well-adjusted adult

> > > > I no longer need to protect myself by people pleasing for love

> > > > I've learned the love inside of me is all I need

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> > > > It's no longer a time to recount horror stories

> > > > Or belabor years of agony and pain

> > > > Or mishandled anger and denial

> > > > Its a time of letting go.

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