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I'm a returning member named Kayla and I'd just like to confess/share on my

small step towards becoming an intuitive eater. (I restarted my IE journey less

than a month ago after doing my own thing for a year):

Today I went out with family and had two and a half tacos and some tortilla

chips. I hadn't eaten much earlier in the day, so even though I ate more than I

would have liked, I wasn't sweating it too much...yet. We get to my parents'

house and after stealing glances at a cookie for two hours over conversation, I

have a cookie. It wasn't even good. Now I'm feeling like I " messed up. "

Feeling poorly and stuck in the diet mentality, I leave to drop off a batch of

cookies I baked for my sister...and eat one with her. Then at home I eat a small

piece of chocolate cake and a serving of tortilla chips with some hummus.

When I feel like I've " messed up, " I'd usually go on a spree and binge to the

point of physical sickness, to the point where kinetic movement was

uncomfortable. After the two cookies, the cake, and the tortilla chips, I was

geared to binge as I put two pieces of bread in the toaster to make another full

meal (involving ample amounts of cheese or peanut butter), and then maybe even

eat more after that. But after I popped in the bread, I went on a quick five

minute walk that helped me reflect and change my mind. The bread is still in the

toaster downstairs, and I am in bed writing this.

It's a very small victory, but a victory none the less. I wish I could have

stopped right after the tacos--or even half way through the tacos--but it is the

journey, not the destination, right?