A Good Dream - Do you have them?

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Nightmares and weirdo stuff is all I used to remember from my dreaming.

Nightmares of nada, variations of nada attacking me, watching others attack me,

standing by while the robber turned into a rabid wolf, etc. I had some good

dreams at times, but there was often this theme of rejection and kids from my

old school not liking me. It's strange because this isn't really based in fact,

just the way I felt inside then. I'm almost 40, for heaven sakes; I don't even

know these people now, so I'm pretty sure it was symbolizing something.

Last night I had a good dream.

I dreamed about some friends in school who recently contacted me on facebook.

In the dream, I was embarrassed because I had blurted out that I didn't think

they liked me. Then, in the next " frame " I'm sitting with them on the bus

hanging out like old pals. I didn't particularly love these people or feel a

sense of homecoming or anything, but just that it was okay. I felt okay. I

felt like they liked me. They did like me. It was a dream of acceptance.

I would like to thank you all for making this possible. I believe it is because

I feel accepted for the first time since I've been writing and reading here. I

feel accepted for who I really am, and I am beginning to accept myself. I do

feel a sense of homecoming here. It's nice to have a place to call home. (I

started in on myself about how pathetic I am that my best friends are online and

don't even know me. Then I said, " Screw that. These people know me better than

anyone else in the world. " )

Thank you, friends.

-Coal Miner's Daughter