Guest guest Posted November 13, 2010 Report Share Posted November 13, 2010 In the last few years I've really thought of myself as having beat my depression, but when I have to deal with Nada, it just comes flooding back. I can deal with Fada better; for some reason it hurts me more to have a self-involved mother than a narcissicistic father ... I guess we expect more from our mothers? (Or maybe that's just me.) She called yesterday. Don't know why I answered the phone. She was bright and chatty and said that she was " thinking about family " and I just wanted to be sick. I wanted to say " Family?!? What the hell are you talking about? I don't have a family. (AT least not a family of origin.) What I have is a lot of f*cked up, broken, sad memories of a pathetic childhood you couldn't pay me to re-experience! " I am so grateful for my husband and daughter. I just hope to god I'm not f*cking her up. I hope she doesn't hate me some day the way I hate my parents. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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