Re: Eating as nurturing... (warning, delicate digestive descriptions included)

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Sandarah I started out doing some rebellious 'comfort' eating last night but boy

did it turn out to be anything but comforting!! I had bought some chocolate

candy a couple of weeks ago and found myself right back into the old 'eat it

'cuz its there' mode. It seemed to me that I must have been unconsciously

limiting even though I had felt I didn't want it - diet demons die hard!

Well long story short, after eating about a handful I began feeling more than

just 'bad' and within a short time my stomach rejected everything in it. I spent

the entire night hardly sleeping and getting 'cleaned out' better than if I was

going to have a colonoscopy. Needless to say I haven't felt like eating hardly

at all and the thought of chocolate definitely turns me off.

Today I've been at 1/4 power with napping, recovering and minimal eating. A very

healthy respect for my body and feeding it right is sitting with me. Even ice

cream, which is another comfort food for me, doesn't sound appealing at all.

Katcha

IEing since March 2007

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> Thursday I had a surgical procedure on my feet. Rather than have a general

anesthetic, I chose a local as I do terrible with the other. Long story short,

it was stressful beforehand and it hurt like crazy. Woof.

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> When I got home from the surgery I pulled out some ice cream I had on hand for

company on Saturday and ate half it. Later I had some more -with lots of

chocolate sauce. Today I feel like I could eat and eat and eat all day - except

I have nothing on hand I even want and I tossed the chocolate sauce as I really

don't want to slug down a whole bottle of it.

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> My feet are throbbing even though I'm using pain medication which also makes

me feel slightly off.

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> If I had it I think I could eat a gallon of ice cream with a quart of

chocolate sauce. This isn't about emotions, it's about seeking comfort. I

can't bathe, I can't go for a nice walk - and I'm restless so napping isn't

happening either.

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> What else might I do to soothe the upset that's brewing during this healing

process when all I really want to do is eat - and go unconscious? Hmmm. Maybe

I should just go out and buy some ice cream... I'm not sure. I don't really

want to get dressed and drive anywhere. What would a normal eater do???

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> Sandarah

> IEating since 8/11

> (whatever that means...)

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