Candy

[Guest guest]

One of my few happy memories with nada was making fudge and licking the

pans and spoons. As her hermit traits built, couldn t get her to do it

in her later years. Since she passed in July of 09, I haven t been

able to bring myself to get into it.

Was reading candy recipes and thinking about it the other night, and

grief hit me hard. Yea, big strong ex sailor and hard ass wept for the

loss of my mother, the loss of the little good, the loss of her chance

to be normal and happy, the loss of the chance for a normal mom.

It sucks. I had loss, and grief, and hers was a sad and painful life.

But you keep on breathing and living.

So, tomorrow, I m spending the day making truffles, rum balls, bourbon

balls, fudge, peanut butter balls, raisin rum cake, gingerbread,

divinity, and hard candy.

On Christmas, I ll share my work with my daughter and grandchildren. I

ll share the joy with them. I will not wallow in the grief.

I will not be Scrooge this year. I will live, love, laugh, sing, and

be joyful.

I will take the part of life I should be able to have.

Merry Christmas , guys.

Is there anything you ve lost, and not picked up for a long time because

of Nada?

It s yours. This is your time, now. What is it? Will you take it

back?

I m making truffles tomorrow. Come by the house and I ll let you lick

the spoons.

Doug