Re: Do you think it's possible?...

[Guest guest]

Yes, I think its possible. I have both some vivid, highly detailed, acid-etched

memories of traumatic abuse incidents (hypernesia), and yet from time to time

something will trigger a repressed memory or feeling. Those are weird, but

interesting.

Nada triggered one of those when I watched her interacting with some of my very

little cousins several years back. Nada ignored and brushed past (literally

pushed aside) the older girl (about 4 years old at the time) who was holding her

arms out for a hug, to scoop up the younger child who didn't even react to

nada's arrival. He was about 2 and happily playing with his toy. Seeing the

hurt and bewilderment on my little girl cousin's face, suddenly I was out of my

body and watching the proceedings from somewhere near the ceiling.

So, yes, I think our minds have evolved several ways of handling stress and

trauma that are intended to promote our survival, and they're all remarkable.

-Annie

>

> Just another thought here...

>

> Do you think it's possible that in some cases we really do suppress

> memories? I think so, but I'm not entirely sure (at least not for me).

>

> I know that I have experienced situations, even ones that seem harmless,

> that have suddenly triggered a memory that seemed lost & forgotten. And

> I'll stop & go " Hmm... that's odd/interesting/awful. " I'll know it's mine,

> and I know it's real. But I guess I fear that other people won't believe

> me. I don't know if any of it makes sense. I've shared some of these rare

> randomly triggered memories with my T and she has never used the words

> " suppressed memory " or whatever. She just listens. But she's never made me

> feel like I'm making it up either. I don't know.

>

> I've had this feeling for some time that there is really something terrible

> in the " back of my mind " that I just flat out blocked. Don't ask me what it

> is because I don't know. But I don't like the feeling of it, nor do I know

> if it's " real " . I think my T suspects something blocked too because from

> October to the end of December. I get really down down down. I asked her if

> she thought I had seasonal affective disorder, she said, " No. I think

> something probably happened around that time for you that's triggering you

> to feel depressed. " That just makes me feel more strange about that feeling

> of having some terrible thing blocked out of my memory.

>

> The only significant things that happen from october to December are my

> birthday & then of course the holidays.

>

> Ok, now just ship me off to the hospital or something. I've obviously lost

> it and feel like a real nut right now.

>

> *sigh* Mia

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

I agree Annie, absolutely remarkable. And what a sad story =( I feel for

you & the little cousin.

The mind is an amazing thing.

Mia

On Mon, Jan 3, 2011 at 1:21 PM, anuria67854 wrote:

>

>

> Yes, I think its possible. I have both some vivid, highly detailed,

> acid-etched memories of traumatic abuse incidents (hypernesia), and yet from

> time to time something will trigger a repressed memory or feeling. Those are

> weird, but interesting.

>

> Nada triggered one of those when I watched her interacting with some of my

> very little cousins several years back. Nada ignored and brushed past

> (literally pushed aside) the older girl (about 4 years old at the time) who

> was holding her arms out for a hug, to scoop up the younger child who didn't

> even react to nada's arrival. He was about 2 and happily playing with his

> toy. Seeing the hurt and bewilderment on my little girl cousin's face,

> suddenly I was out of my body and watching the proceedings from somewhere

> near the ceiling.

>

> So, yes, I think our minds have evolved several ways of handling stress and

> trauma that are intended to promote our survival, and they're all

> remarkable.

>

> -Annie

>

>

>

> >

> > Just another thought here...

> >

> > Do you think it's possible that in some cases we really do suppress

> > memories? I think so, but I'm not entirely sure (at least not for me).

> >

> > I know that I have experienced situations, even ones that seem harmless,

> > that have suddenly triggered a memory that seemed lost & forgotten. And

> > I'll stop & go " Hmm... that's odd/interesting/awful. " I'll know it's

> mine,

> > and I know it's real. But I guess I fear that other people won't believe

> > me. I don't know if any of it makes sense. I've shared some of these rare

> > randomly triggered memories with my T and she has never used the words

> > " suppressed memory " or whatever. She just listens. But she's never made

> me

> > feel like I'm making it up either. I don't know.

> >

> > I've had this feeling for some time that there is really something

> terrible

> > in the " back of my mind " that I just flat out blocked. Don't ask me what

> it

> > is because I don't know. But I don't like the feeling of it, nor do I

> know

> > if it's " real " . I think my T suspects something blocked too because from

> > October to the end of December. I get really down down down. I asked her

> if

> > she thought I had seasonal affective disorder, she said, " No. I think

> > something probably happened around that time for you that's triggering

> you

> > to feel depressed. " That just makes me feel more strange about that

> feeling

> > of having some terrible thing blocked out of my memory.

> >

> > The only significant things that happen from october to December are my

> > birthday & then of course the holidays.

> >

> > Ok, now just ship me off to the hospital or something. I've obviously

> lost

> > it and feel like a real nut right now.

> >

> > *sigh* Mia

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

I agree Annie, absolutely remarkable. And what a sad story =( I feel for

you & the little cousin.

The mind is an amazing thing.

Mia

On Mon, Jan 3, 2011 at 1:21 PM, anuria67854 wrote:

>

>

> Yes, I think its possible. I have both some vivid, highly detailed,

> acid-etched memories of traumatic abuse incidents (hypernesia), and yet from

> time to time something will trigger a repressed memory or feeling. Those are

> weird, but interesting.

>

> Nada triggered one of those when I watched her interacting with some of my

> very little cousins several years back. Nada ignored and brushed past

> (literally pushed aside) the older girl (about 4 years old at the time) who

> was holding her arms out for a hug, to scoop up the younger child who didn't

> even react to nada's arrival. He was about 2 and happily playing with his

> toy. Seeing the hurt and bewilderment on my little girl cousin's face,

> suddenly I was out of my body and watching the proceedings from somewhere

> near the ceiling.

>

> So, yes, I think our minds have evolved several ways of handling stress and

> trauma that are intended to promote our survival, and they're all

> remarkable.

>

> -Annie

>

>

>

> >

> > Just another thought here...

> >

> > Do you think it's possible that in some cases we really do suppress

> > memories? I think so, but I'm not entirely sure (at least not for me).

> >

> > I know that I have experienced situations, even ones that seem harmless,

> > that have suddenly triggered a memory that seemed lost & forgotten. And

> > I'll stop & go " Hmm... that's odd/interesting/awful. " I'll know it's

> mine,

> > and I know it's real. But I guess I fear that other people won't believe

> > me. I don't know if any of it makes sense. I've shared some of these rare

> > randomly triggered memories with my T and she has never used the words

> > " suppressed memory " or whatever. She just listens. But she's never made

> me

> > feel like I'm making it up either. I don't know.

> >

> > I've had this feeling for some time that there is really something

> terrible

> > in the " back of my mind " that I just flat out blocked. Don't ask me what

> it

> > is because I don't know. But I don't like the feeling of it, nor do I

> know

> > if it's " real " . I think my T suspects something blocked too because from

> > October to the end of December. I get really down down down. I asked her

> if

> > she thought I had seasonal affective disorder, she said, " No. I think

> > something probably happened around that time for you that's triggering

> you

> > to feel depressed. " That just makes me feel more strange about that

> feeling

> > of having some terrible thing blocked out of my memory.

> >

> > The only significant things that happen from october to December are my

> > birthday & then of course the holidays.

> >

> > Ok, now just ship me off to the hospital or something. I've obviously

> lost

> > it and feel like a real nut right now.

> >

> > *sigh* Mia

> >

> >

> >