What is normal? A guess, anyone?

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I noticed in some posts that others mirrored my feeling of being guilty or

feeling afraid we had done something wrong when people expressed negative

feelings here. Is this KO stuff or just a normal human reaction?

Also, I have many reactions I would label " immature " or " BPD-ish " . For example,

I feel like many of you may actually not like me or my posts. Or that my posts

are too long. I feel a little bad if people don't reply to my threads. Then, I

realize this is childish and that the issue is just not particularly relevant at

that time or whatever. Also, you all have replied in abundance and helped meet

my needs for support so overwhelmingly! I think the insecurity is just a flea?

Anyway, I know this is getting pretty personal, maybe not something we like to

admit, but do any of you have these types of reactions in life? I notice that I

can be childish with my own children. Sometimes this seems good because I am a

" fun " mom. I play with them a lot. Babysitters talk about how fun it is to

work for us because the kids get to play outside a lot, have pets, etc. But I

think I do this for me because I am being a kid with them a little bit. Is this

just normal, healthy childlike joy or BPD-type behavior? (For example, I am

REALLY looking forward to Thanksgiving with my 8 year-old son because we are

hosting the party and going to have party favors and decorate! It seems so fun

to me.)

I think the key difference between normal human emotion and disordered behavior

is that we monitor ourselves and stop irrational thoughts, whereas someone with

BPD does not see the problem at all. Or is " normal " defined by not having these

irrational thoughts/feelings/beliefs at all?

-Coal Miner's Daughter