I'm going to see a counselor

[Guest guest]

Dear WTO Group,

I have decided that I will start counseling in January. I used to think that I

would " have " to go to counseling if I got really bad off or dangerously

depressed again. Now I think I will choose to go - in order to be better than I

am now.

I would like to thank so many of you for mentioning your therapists and the help

they have given. I can see that going to counseling is a strength, not a

weakness. I can see this because of how strong you all are.

I saw counselors as a teenager when suicidal and hospitalized. And I went a

couple of years ago for behavioral sessions in marriage counseling. I'm

convinced that saved our marriage. But I have not gone to work through this KO

stuff, since I have been avoiding the whole issue like the plague my whole life

pretending like it doesn't exist. I can think of nothing more horrible than

sitting in an office talking for hours about the person I hate most in this

life. Just the fact that I feel actual hatred is a warning signal. Someone

mentioned this about anger being a flashing red light to tell us something is

wrong.

I think it's time to bite the bullet on this one, though. So I am going to call

for an appointment and start after the new year. Thank you all.

+Coal Miner's Daughter