Numbing My Emotions With Food

[Guest guest]

Hi,

I have legalized all foods. I still find myself mindlessly eating in front of

the TV - seeking to numb my emotions - check out. I recently lost my father and

am eating so much so mindlessly I am scaring myself. Even though I know I will

feel terrible, physically and emotionally the next day - I still do it and then

I feel so bad I have more emotions I can't handle. I need help - probably

professional. I am using food as a substance and abusing it. I have started

the book Intuitve Eating twice and got stuck both times at the same point. All

foods have been legalized. I don't diet. Although, lately it has been tempting

to try weight watchers again as a means of reigning in my overeating. But I

know that isn't the answer. I don't weigh myself. And there I have stopped. I

can't bring myself to eat mindfully, pay attention to my hunger signals. I

start to try and it feels like dieting to me - I get rigid about it and

obsessive. I think I might have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder around the whole

issue of food. I did join the Y yesterday - I haven't had a regular exercise

routine in years and I know it helps - both the mind and the body. I just need

to take care of myself. I really needed to get this off my chest. I am going

to start utilizing this group as a means of helping myself as well as the

exercise. Two positive steps I have taken this week. I have been lurking here

for 2 years and rarely post. A pregnancy distracted me and made me feel normal

for awhile and now one year post new baby I am really struggling with the food

issues again. There is so much helpful advice in this group and I am so glad

it's here.

Thank you!

Georgi