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Hi my name is Sara and a friend suggested Intuitive Eating as I was about to start another " diet " (this one was eating super healthy, but still..) I did try it for a few days like usual, though I did this one for way less time than the others.. my heart is no longer in diets apparently.. Looking back, I've been dieting on and off for at least 10 years, though I am 41 now and was chubby as a 9 year old.. so I think the pressure has always been there.. and I remember gorging on french bread and butter at restaurants as a child and knowing it was " bad " .. But then as a 21 year old having a baby, I didn't think at all about my weight, and looking at pictures I was beautiful and thin.. with no obsessing about it!!! So I know/ at least hope I can get back there.. I did read Geneen Roth's books many years ago and tried to do what she suggested.. It did really strike me as true and for me, but I couldn't manage to stick with it.. I didn't really understand or have the courage or something.. I'm not sure.. Now that I have read IE I think that the same information presented in different ways may help to just have a better outline/steps or something.. I find that the IE book is still hard for me to figure out in terms of what to really do in what order.. I just feel like I need some guidance, so I sought out and found this group, which I am excited to be part of..! Someone mentioned the Eat What You Love book so I downloaded that in hopes that the steps might be more clear.. I know it just might be me wanting rules to follow, but I think in part I need a format that speaks to what I'm going through.. I got the IE book a few weeks ago, and am trying to give myself unconditional permission to eat whatever I want, and am eating a lot of sweets.. I have occasional breakthrough feelings and understandings about myself, but am also eating unconsciously a lot and that is where I got stuck last time, just eating a lot of cookie dough and moving on to other sweets but feeling like no progress being made.. I didn't put that perfectly, cause the whole thing is surprisingly foggy for me.. even now.. I am a smart person, and it is so frustrating that this is such a struggle and I am so frightened.. But I am truly determined to do it this time.. I have a lot of faith in myself and am so done with diets.. Anyways.. thanks for being here!!!!

Sara