Re: Holiday Dinner? Christmas check in...

[Guest guest]

Last night while eating I suddenly realized I was full and still eating and

stopped - and moved out of automatic eating and into being conscious.

Earlier in the day I was swamped in negative feelings about being, I think,

heavier than in the past. But finally, miracle of miracles, I was able to take

in on n entirely new level that I'm committed to IE and that this weight gain is

1) not the end of the world, 2) a result of too many years of too many diets, 3)

because I'm still fumbling around with how to do IE, and 4) a symptom that IE is

working.

So... with taking the time to back the diet/weight police into a corner - my

spirits lifted and I had a wonderful time.

Truly, people who love you don't care about your weight, with the exception of a

few rigid thinkers who are beyond hope anyway.

I figure that I'm conscious about 10% of the time not which, considering that I

was unconscious about eating 100% of the time a few months ago, is pretty fair

progress. And, truly, sitting around being pre-occupied with either feeling

deprived due to diet restriction or guilty/afraid due to diet backlash is a

miserable way to live, no matter what you weigh.

I know that I will come around eventually if I stick with this - and I surely

had a better time with the family than I've had in years.

So, here's to dinner tonight with more friends and family with nothing to rebel

against and, more importantly, the realization that I'm not fat because I'm a

bad person, I'm heavier than I'd like to be because I was a great dieter and

denied my body so well, so often that eventually dieting quit working entirely.

Now, I get to recover, whereas many people will continue to diet and deprive and

fixate on their weight the rest of their lives.

Thank you all for sharing this journey with me. Merry Christmas.

Sandarah

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> > > > We're having Christmas today with part of our family -- 2 of the grown

kids + spouses, 3 of the grandkids, my mother. I am looking forward to it; our

son and his girlfriend are both great cooks, and so am I (contributing some of

the dishes.) I'm planning to eat what I want and not worry about it. If I gain a

couple pounds between Thanksgiving and New Year's, so what? Who doesn't?

> > > >

> > > > Ellie

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Last night while eating I suddenly realized I was full and still eating and

stopped - and moved out of automatic eating and into being conscious.

Earlier in the day I was swamped in negative feelings about being, I think,

heavier than in the past. But finally, miracle of miracles, I was able to take

in on n entirely new level that I'm committed to IE and that this weight gain is

1) not the end of the world, 2) a result of too many years of too many diets, 3)

because I'm still fumbling around with how to do IE, and 4) a symptom that IE is

working.

So... with taking the time to back the diet/weight police into a corner - my

spirits lifted and I had a wonderful time.

Truly, people who love you don't care about your weight, with the exception of a

few rigid thinkers who are beyond hope anyway.

I figure that I'm conscious about 10% of the time not which, considering that I

was unconscious about eating 100% of the time a few months ago, is pretty fair

progress. And, truly, sitting around being pre-occupied with either feeling

deprived due to diet restriction or guilty/afraid due to diet backlash is a

miserable way to live, no matter what you weigh.

I know that I will come around eventually if I stick with this - and I surely

had a better time with the family than I've had in years.

So, here's to dinner tonight with more friends and family with nothing to rebel

against and, more importantly, the realization that I'm not fat because I'm a

bad person, I'm heavier than I'd like to be because I was a great dieter and

denied my body so well, so often that eventually dieting quit working entirely.

Now, I get to recover, whereas many people will continue to diet and deprive and

fixate on their weight the rest of their lives.

Thank you all for sharing this journey with me. Merry Christmas.

Sandarah

> > > >

> > > > We're having Christmas today with part of our family -- 2 of the grown

kids + spouses, 3 of the grandkids, my mother. I am looking forward to it; our

son and his girlfriend are both great cooks, and so am I (contributing some of

the dishes.) I'm planning to eat what I want and not worry about it. If I gain a

couple pounds between Thanksgiving and New Year's, so what? Who doesn't?

> > > >

> > > > Ellie

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

Last night while eating I suddenly realized I was full and still eating and

stopped - and moved out of automatic eating and into being conscious.

Earlier in the day I was swamped in negative feelings about being, I think,

heavier than in the past. But finally, miracle of miracles, I was able to take

in on n entirely new level that I'm committed to IE and that this weight gain is

1) not the end of the world, 2) a result of too many years of too many diets, 3)

because I'm still fumbling around with how to do IE, and 4) a symptom that IE is

working.

So... with taking the time to back the diet/weight police into a corner - my

spirits lifted and I had a wonderful time.

Truly, people who love you don't care about your weight, with the exception of a

few rigid thinkers who are beyond hope anyway.

I figure that I'm conscious about 10% of the time not which, considering that I

was unconscious about eating 100% of the time a few months ago, is pretty fair

progress. And, truly, sitting around being pre-occupied with either feeling

deprived due to diet restriction or guilty/afraid due to diet backlash is a

miserable way to live, no matter what you weigh.

I know that I will come around eventually if I stick with this - and I surely

had a better time with the family than I've had in years.

So, here's to dinner tonight with more friends and family with nothing to rebel

against and, more importantly, the realization that I'm not fat because I'm a

bad person, I'm heavier than I'd like to be because I was a great dieter and

denied my body so well, so often that eventually dieting quit working entirely.

Now, I get to recover, whereas many people will continue to diet and deprive and

fixate on their weight the rest of their lives.

Thank you all for sharing this journey with me. Merry Christmas.

Sandarah

> > > >

> > > > We're having Christmas today with part of our family -- 2 of the grown

kids + spouses, 3 of the grandkids, my mother. I am looking forward to it; our

son and his girlfriend are both great cooks, and so am I (contributing some of

the dishes.) I'm planning to eat what I want and not worry about it. If I gain a

couple pounds between Thanksgiving and New Year's, so what? Who doesn't?

> > > >

> > > > Ellie

> > > >

> > >

> >

>

[Guest guest]

What a wonderful gift for yourself Sandarah :-) IE, the gift that keeps on

giving :-) :-) ehugs, Katcha

>

> Last night while eating I suddenly realized I was full and still eating and

stopped - and moved out of automatic eating and into being conscious.

>

> Earlier in the day I was swamped in negative feelings about being, I think,

heavier than in the past. But finally, miracle of miracles, I was able to take

in on n entirely new level that I'm committed to IE and that this weight gain is

1) not the end of the world, 2) a result of too many years of too many diets, 3)

because I'm still fumbling around with how to do IE, and 4) a symptom that IE is

working.

>

> . . . more importantly, the realization that I'm not fat because I'm a bad

person, I'm heavier than I'd like to be because I was a great dieter and denied

my body so well, so often that eventually dieting quit working entirely. Now,

I get to recover . . .

>

> Thank you all for sharing this journey with me. Merry Christmas.

>

> Sandarah

[Guest guest]

What a wonderful gift for yourself Sandarah :-) IE, the gift that keeps on

giving :-) :-) ehugs, Katcha

>

> Last night while eating I suddenly realized I was full and still eating and

stopped - and moved out of automatic eating and into being conscious.

>

> Earlier in the day I was swamped in negative feelings about being, I think,

heavier than in the past. But finally, miracle of miracles, I was able to take

in on n entirely new level that I'm committed to IE and that this weight gain is

1) not the end of the world, 2) a result of too many years of too many diets, 3)

because I'm still fumbling around with how to do IE, and 4) a symptom that IE is

working.

>

> . . . more importantly, the realization that I'm not fat because I'm a bad

person, I'm heavier than I'd like to be because I was a great dieter and denied

my body so well, so often that eventually dieting quit working entirely. Now,

I get to recover . . .

>

> Thank you all for sharing this journey with me. Merry Christmas.

>

> Sandarah