Re: A reintroduction and a question.

[Guest guest]

Wow McKella you really did get IE into your life. Thanks for sharing that so

others can be inspired and encouraged.

We certainly live in economically challenging times. Many people are getting

stressed over just keeping a household together let alone developing a career.

No wonder you are feeling extra pressed into whatever comfort you can find for

yourself.

I bet that you find just posting will help you identify and deal with what you

need to do to work out of the space you are currently in. I like your compromise

thoughts - a little part time income as well as some efforts on your own behalf

for your art passion. I'm old enough to remember 'street artists' who would

simply set up displays and offer their work to any that appreciated it. What

used to catch my eye was how clever some were in material use - lots of

'recycling'!

Lovely to hear from another long term member. Hope you get back into your IE

groove soon.

Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Hi, I'm McKella. I joined this group 2 or 3 years ago, but I've been quiet for

the last year and a half or so. I'd like to get back in the conversation, so I

thought I'd just reintroduce myself.

> I discovered IE almost exactly three years ago when I was 20. I was obsessed

with food, had used food as a coping tool all my life, and had been restricting

and binging for eight years since I was 13.

> I struggled with IE for several years because I couldn't let go of emotional

eating to soothe my depression and anxiety. In March of this year I went to a

holistic doctor who pinpointed several nutrient deficiencies and dangerously low

glucose levels, both of which can trigger binging, and provided me with the

tools to heal my emotions. Intuitive eating came naturally after that and I've

since lost 30 pounds an now I'm enjoy what I believe is my natural weight,

though my body may decide to keep losing.

> Now I move with joy every day, eat intuitively 95% of the time and I love my

body and feel connected to it most of the time. I'm not obsessed with food, I'm

focusing more on my creativity, and it's wonderful.

> However, I've struggled a bit the last few weeks with emotional eating.

Nothing like it used to be, but I've been eating more sugar than my body needs

and last night I got uncomfortably full because I made some cookies, my #1

comfort food. I let myself eat the cookies and then I journaled about what I was

feeling. I realized that I'm stressed because I'm trying to create my career as

an artist,but I feel like my husband is pressuring me to make money right away

and that he is in charge of my career, not me. He's not overbearing or anything,

but he doesn't understand that I'm a sensitive person and I need to be in charge

of my own business and do it my way, and that it can take time. I'm planning on

getting a part-time job to take some of the pressure off, but not until I can

get out of this mindset that I have to get a job because I'm not contributing,

and instead do it to fund my dream.

> Feeling trapped or controlled is a massive trigger for me, one that I haven't

yet learned how to deal with because I tend to avoid conflict, and in the past

I'd just " rebel " with my eating. I know it all boils down to a self-esteem issue

(which I'm actively working on) but in the meantime I don't want to fall back

into old habits, because they just make me feel yucky and make everything that

much harder.

> I know that I need to cultivate an " I'm in charge of my own stuff " mindset,

but does anyone else have any other advice? I know my husband isn't meaning to

pressure me, he's just a fiery personality while I'm much softer, and it's

overwhelming sometimes.

> I think I just kind of word-vomited here, but I would love advice if anyone

has any.

> Thanks!

> McKella

>

[Guest guest]

Wow McKella you really did get IE into your life. Thanks for sharing that so

others can be inspired and encouraged.

We certainly live in economically challenging times. Many people are getting

stressed over just keeping a household together let alone developing a career.

No wonder you are feeling extra pressed into whatever comfort you can find for

yourself.

I bet that you find just posting will help you identify and deal with what you

need to do to work out of the space you are currently in. I like your compromise

thoughts - a little part time income as well as some efforts on your own behalf

for your art passion. I'm old enough to remember 'street artists' who would

simply set up displays and offer their work to any that appreciated it. What

used to catch my eye was how clever some were in material use - lots of

'recycling'!

Lovely to hear from another long term member. Hope you get back into your IE

groove soon.

Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Hi, I'm McKella. I joined this group 2 or 3 years ago, but I've been quiet for

the last year and a half or so. I'd like to get back in the conversation, so I

thought I'd just reintroduce myself.

> I discovered IE almost exactly three years ago when I was 20. I was obsessed

with food, had used food as a coping tool all my life, and had been restricting

and binging for eight years since I was 13.

> I struggled with IE for several years because I couldn't let go of emotional

eating to soothe my depression and anxiety. In March of this year I went to a

holistic doctor who pinpointed several nutrient deficiencies and dangerously low

glucose levels, both of which can trigger binging, and provided me with the

tools to heal my emotions. Intuitive eating came naturally after that and I've

since lost 30 pounds an now I'm enjoy what I believe is my natural weight,

though my body may decide to keep losing.

> Now I move with joy every day, eat intuitively 95% of the time and I love my

body and feel connected to it most of the time. I'm not obsessed with food, I'm

focusing more on my creativity, and it's wonderful.

> However, I've struggled a bit the last few weeks with emotional eating.

Nothing like it used to be, but I've been eating more sugar than my body needs

and last night I got uncomfortably full because I made some cookies, my #1

comfort food. I let myself eat the cookies and then I journaled about what I was

feeling. I realized that I'm stressed because I'm trying to create my career as

an artist,but I feel like my husband is pressuring me to make money right away

and that he is in charge of my career, not me. He's not overbearing or anything,

but he doesn't understand that I'm a sensitive person and I need to be in charge

of my own business and do it my way, and that it can take time. I'm planning on

getting a part-time job to take some of the pressure off, but not until I can

get out of this mindset that I have to get a job because I'm not contributing,

and instead do it to fund my dream.

> Feeling trapped or controlled is a massive trigger for me, one that I haven't

yet learned how to deal with because I tend to avoid conflict, and in the past

I'd just " rebel " with my eating. I know it all boils down to a self-esteem issue

(which I'm actively working on) but in the meantime I don't want to fall back

into old habits, because they just make me feel yucky and make everything that

much harder.

> I know that I need to cultivate an " I'm in charge of my own stuff " mindset,

but does anyone else have any other advice? I know my husband isn't meaning to

pressure me, he's just a fiery personality while I'm much softer, and it's

overwhelming sometimes.

> I think I just kind of word-vomited here, but I would love advice if anyone

has any.

> Thanks!

> McKella

>

[Guest guest]

Wow McKella you really did get IE into your life. Thanks for sharing that so

others can be inspired and encouraged.

We certainly live in economically challenging times. Many people are getting

stressed over just keeping a household together let alone developing a career.

No wonder you are feeling extra pressed into whatever comfort you can find for

yourself.

I bet that you find just posting will help you identify and deal with what you

need to do to work out of the space you are currently in. I like your compromise

thoughts - a little part time income as well as some efforts on your own behalf

for your art passion. I'm old enough to remember 'street artists' who would

simply set up displays and offer their work to any that appreciated it. What

used to catch my eye was how clever some were in material use - lots of

'recycling'!

Lovely to hear from another long term member. Hope you get back into your IE

groove soon.

Katcha

IEing since March 2007

>

> Hi, I'm McKella. I joined this group 2 or 3 years ago, but I've been quiet for

the last year and a half or so. I'd like to get back in the conversation, so I

thought I'd just reintroduce myself.

> I discovered IE almost exactly three years ago when I was 20. I was obsessed

with food, had used food as a coping tool all my life, and had been restricting

and binging for eight years since I was 13.

> I struggled with IE for several years because I couldn't let go of emotional

eating to soothe my depression and anxiety. In March of this year I went to a

holistic doctor who pinpointed several nutrient deficiencies and dangerously low

glucose levels, both of which can trigger binging, and provided me with the

tools to heal my emotions. Intuitive eating came naturally after that and I've

since lost 30 pounds an now I'm enjoy what I believe is my natural weight,

though my body may decide to keep losing.

> Now I move with joy every day, eat intuitively 95% of the time and I love my

body and feel connected to it most of the time. I'm not obsessed with food, I'm

focusing more on my creativity, and it's wonderful.

> However, I've struggled a bit the last few weeks with emotional eating.

Nothing like it used to be, but I've been eating more sugar than my body needs

and last night I got uncomfortably full because I made some cookies, my #1

comfort food. I let myself eat the cookies and then I journaled about what I was

feeling. I realized that I'm stressed because I'm trying to create my career as

an artist,but I feel like my husband is pressuring me to make money right away

and that he is in charge of my career, not me. He's not overbearing or anything,

but he doesn't understand that I'm a sensitive person and I need to be in charge

of my own business and do it my way, and that it can take time. I'm planning on

getting a part-time job to take some of the pressure off, but not until I can

get out of this mindset that I have to get a job because I'm not contributing,

and instead do it to fund my dream.

> Feeling trapped or controlled is a massive trigger for me, one that I haven't

yet learned how to deal with because I tend to avoid conflict, and in the past

I'd just " rebel " with my eating. I know it all boils down to a self-esteem issue

(which I'm actively working on) but in the meantime I don't want to fall back

into old habits, because they just make me feel yucky and make everything that

much harder.

> I know that I need to cultivate an " I'm in charge of my own stuff " mindset,

but does anyone else have any other advice? I know my husband isn't meaning to

pressure me, he's just a fiery personality while I'm much softer, and it's

overwhelming sometimes.

> I think I just kind of word-vomited here, but I would love advice if anyone

has any.

> Thanks!

> McKella

>