Guest guest Posted December 30, 2011 Report Share Posted December 30, 2011 Val, & everyone, Thanks for the posts. I am a newbie here and I dont want to " struggle " with wanting to be thin. I have soent my whole life being on hold, until I was thin. And when I was thin, I was still not happy, because of being in the restricting food police head; I was afraid of getting fat and losing my thin body that I restricted even more, then swung to binge eating. When I look at this, I do believe those thoughts created my reality now. This time I have tge power of choice to not be in that head anymore. it is work, but I know it,gets easier and better everyday. I have been on a sugar binge since the holidays. Overeating and then restricting . I dont get hunger or fullness cues. I could eat an apple and feel stuffed. I dont even know what foods I enjoy anymore. I was with my sister shopping today and she happened to talk about a food she loves. You could hear her appreciation and enjoyment. I thought: I dont feel that way about any food. I just get into binge mode and it doesnt matter. I realised I am grieving over my loss of taste appreciation and enjoyment in eating. I am just tired of the way I feel, the way I look, and the way I eat. Maybe this is all part of starting this ie journey? Is this common in the beginning. I feel lost and dont know where to start... Lulu Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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