Guest guest Posted September 6, 2011 Report Share Posted September 6, 2011 The problem is that I feel deprived if I feel like eating and I have to restrain myself. To: "IntuitiveEating_Support " <IntuitiveEating_Support >Sent: Tuesday, September 6, 2011 8:39 PMSubject: Re: Few more thoughts.... Sandarah, I can so relate. I just turned 57, have been on this journey for 44 years...I believe part of my resistance to removing the excess weight is...my identity is so tied up with weight issues...once these are resolved...what then... I'm making a concerted effort to really connect with me...to re-discover my interests...my passions. It's a struggle. Carole To: IntuitiveEating_Support Sent: Tuesday, September 6, 2011 1:55:06 PMSubject: Few more thoughts....My innate gifts languish on the sidelines of my life, my goals have been long superceded with self-consciousness and self-hate and my dreams are long fogotten. Sometimes now when I go to bed at night and all defenses are down, I feel a huge wave of deep sadness that almost overwhelms me. My life has been centered around the failure to be a certain size for so long that I don't really know who I am beyond that unachieved goal. So... in sum... there's the dirty look from the skinny woman, the need for every American woman to wear single-digit sized clothing and the reality of a life that's waiting for me to start inhabiting it for real this time.That's it - I'm just going to sit with that for a while. Thanks for listening.Sandarah IE since 8/11------------------------------------ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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