Normalizing versus Legalizing...

[Guest guest]

Last night I went out to dinner with friends. Dinner was fine, I found myself

distracted by the conversation and eating past full so I stopped. Then it came

time to decide about dessert. I felt a flash of excitement at the thought of

dessert that immediately faded, because dessert is no longer special. There was

a little bit of disappointment followed by, " oh, I guess this is what

normalizing formerly forbidden foods feels like " . I didn't order dessert which

I always would have in the past, even if others didn't.

On the way to the car I thought about the let down because dessert has always

been restricted, if not forbidden. Growing up I could have it - but only

following dinner and only however much mom doled out. Seconds would have been

the end of the world. Then there were all those diets all those years...

But, now because I'm allowing it every time I want it, last night it was just

food. Food that at least didn't feel interesting at all.

Hope this holds. Seems too good to be true. Sandarah