diet mentality

[Guest guest]

The diet mentality and all that goes with it is raising its ugly head. The food

police, the rebel, etc. Really feeling depressed today and not sure what is

going on. I had a good time with my friend on a 3 day vacation. We got back

Tuesday and I was following IE well without judgement enjoying different foods

and allowing for unusual situations. But found I got full fast and did not

overeat. I was not hungry that often but we ate when we were. My friend is

" back on his diet " and I think I felt threatened by that. He has always been

able to watch what he eats and resist eating anything that would up his

cholesterol(he has a carotid artery issue). He can lose and gain a pound or 2

very easily. I am, on the other hand, always struggling and I have put some

foods back on the forbidden list. That happened since my diagnosis of fatty

liver disease and learning which foods do not honor my liver situation. I have

ended up putting those foods in the forbidden category, usually the ones I love

and crave. I was actually doing well before the trip and excited about trying

lots of new foods and recipes. Today I am angry and resentful at having to give

up the foods I love. So I have come back to diet mentality. I have to remind

myself it is a journey, but I feel like I MUST lose weight and lower my liver

enzymes. I have another lab test on the 30th. Perhaps that is what is driving

this stress. There is no medication for liver disease, only diet/restricting

fat and sugar intake. So it is up to me and what I eat. Sorry this is so long.

Just had to vent. Sandy