Re: Keeping an Eye Open...taste memory

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I used to feel like that (not having stuff in the house) but I decided that

since I was no longer going to weigh myself that I would try to always have

yummy treats readily available, and it really didn't take all that long for them

to lose their magic. I have some of my all-time favorites--like pecan

pie--actually in the house, and it is really nice knowing that I can have some

of it whenever I want. It's still really delicious, and I know that it's a food

that I trully love, but it's just that. Nothing more. No special power at all.

But I think a huge part of that no longer having special power is that it's

there.

A funny thing is that for some reason, that losing of power has extended out

into the rat of the world. I go to a party, and I can look very objectively at

all the sweets and decide if I really want any of them. I have to admit that

almost nothing compares to my pecan pie in the freezer. Maybe a slice of

chocolate cheesecake (but not too much, since chocolate really does give me

migraines), but that might be about it. This is a totally new feeling for me.

Also, I know that when this discussion went around before I said that I only

bought my boys chips if they would agree to keep that in the pantry and not on

top of the fridge where I'd be tempted to grab a handful every time I walk

through the kitchen. Well, they're on the fridge now, and I hardly ever have

any. A few times I've gotten a few, but they didn't really taste all that

great, especially compared to.....(fill that in with anything that you're

currently finding really delicious--for me it was a chicken sandwich on sesame

bread with sweet relish), so why bother.

That's really it, then. When you allow yourself to always eat what you really

want to eat (chocolate cheesecake and all), then you have no desire to eat the

things you don't really want to eat, but used to always eat. I know that,s what

folks have been saying all along, but I don't think I ever truly believed it

until this moment. Wow.

My partner and I came home from a party last night where I didn't overeat at all

(very likely a first), and we're both thinking that we needed fruit, so we drove

to a 24 hour grocery store and bought clementines which I really wanted and

pomegranates which he really wanted.

I am encouraged.

Tilley

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> > I forget whether I've read OO or not. I was on a list for awhile. I gained

weight.... the heaviest I've ever been.

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> > But it just occurred to me..... having " charged " foods available doesn't

mean I have to *eat* them. It's still my own choice. Neither eating them nor not

eating them is an obligation.

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