Hello Everyone

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Hello All. I'm Sharon. I've been subscribed for a few weeks, but haven't posted

as yet.

I've dieted since I was 18 or so and am over 50 now. I've had 3 successes but

always the weight went back on. With each diet it gets harder to go back to that

" hell " way of trying to lose weight.

It's like being in prison. And yet the funny thing is: I hold the key to unlock

where I'm at and be free. But why don't I don that? One of the reasons is that

I'm afraid. I'm afraid that if I trust myself, I'll never be free of the fat.

Never drop any pounds. That's so silly, because the diet thinking makes me

overeat because I tell myself, that from tomorrow (oh there are so many

tomorrows in a week) I'm going to start being " good " . But it doesn't happen does

it?

I don't know what normal eating is anymore. It's some faraway land that others

have found, but I will search for it and never find it. I feel guilty if I eat

when I'm not hungry. I feel guilty if I eat " goodies " . I don't know when to

start, when to stop, and the whole who, what, when, where of food. I don't seem

to hear myself telling me to steady on, slow down, enjoy your food, it's ok, you

can eat that, it's alright.

Where does one start?

Sharon