Feeling disappointed in people

[Guest guest]

Lately I've been feeling disconnected from people. It feels like no one cares

and it is hard for me to live by myself, and it just seems like all my contacts

and friends are busy these days. I've been going to 12 step meetings which is

helping me but I just feel like whenever I talk to people, or try to reach out

to people, there seems to be a lack of initiative on their part to plan with me

and reach back. I can cope with this, but the part I can't cope with is blatant

rudeness. Like, when I was talking to someone today, they started looking in the

other direction towards what others were saying. When they left, they left with

a friend. The other 2 people that were left in the meeting were also leaving,

and one was going to ask if the other had plans or not. The other said she was

meeting with 2 other friends for dinner.

It just seems frustrating when it feels like everyone else has plans with

friends except me.

Sometimes I feel like such an outsider both physically and emotionally from

everyone.

I guess what it may come down to is just holidays. I have no contact with my

family as well. The good news is that I have plans.

I don't know how to tackle the other stuff yet. I just feel bitter about people

in general, and I want to just be by myself for awhile to stew in my bitterness.

Even though I know it is not solving anything.

Thanks for reading this.

Joy