Re: Relaxed rules feels so good. Too good?

[Guest guest]

I'm nervous about experiencing so much pleasure from eating formerly forbidden

foods. I simply feel soothed and comforted but I'm not sure if it's the foods

themselves or just the relief from the intense self-flagellation I was engaging

in. It's like I beat myself up so badly before that I'm experiencing this as

soothing those feelings. I don't think I would trust myself to use the word

" healing " but it is just so nice to eat without that guilt and shame. By the

same token, I don't really want to eat myself into larger clothes. It just gets

really confusing to me to be experiencing any pleasure related to the food

itself, rather than the issue of control that arises when I am depriving myself.

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[Guest guest]

Amen to that. Finding pleasure in eating is strange after all these years of

diet rules, deprivation and the guilt around eating practically any food known

to man.

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> I'm nervous about experiencing so much pleasure from eating formerly forbidden

foods. I simply feel soothed and comforted but I'm not sure if it's the foods

themselves or just the relief from the intense self-flagellation I was engaging

in. It's like I beat myself up so badly before that I'm experiencing this as

soothing those feelings. I don't think I would trust myself to use the word

" healing " but it is just so nice to eat without that guilt and shame. By the

same token, I don't really want to eat myself into larger clothes. It just gets

really confusing to me to be experiencing any pleasure related to the food

itself, rather than the issue of control that arises when I am depriving myself.

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> Sent from my Verizon Wireless Phone

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