Keeping an Eye Open

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OK, so I've committed to making peace with food and my appetite and not making a bunch of rules I can't adhere to and promises I can't keep.BUT..... I do not want to gain weight. I'm at a healthy weight right now, have been for several years. I do go 5 or so pounds above and below a central ballpark, which computes to 10-pound yo-yo'ing, which probably isn't that big a deal, probably a biologically natural seasonal thing (up in winter, down in summer) but there's a point at which I say "Uh-oh!" and that point has been reached.Yes, I do weigh myself.... maybe once a month, no schedule, just a check-in, kind of like getting a cholesterol test. Right now I'm at the top of my yo-yo, the middle number being the one I consider my wake-up call. Yes, my jeans have been

feeling tighter. For me personally, this doesn't mean I need bigger jeans, it means I'm eating more than I need to. Note I didn't say "more than I SHOULD" -- I'm doing away with "should." I'm eating more than I *need to.*So I want to pay closer attention to what I need and don't need without getting into "should" and "shouldn't." I guess "respect" is what I want from myself. And "honor," as in our current Principle #2 discussion: honoring my hunger and satisfaction, and honoring myself with good nutrition, without getting all fouled up in what someone else says I "should" eat (X servings of Y a day, Z instead of A, imaginary portion divisions on a plate.)Thanks for listening.... I'm really just talking to myself out loud. It helps.Ellie