Normal?

[Guest guest]

I have had a really profound shift in the way I feel about food, after having

legalized all sorts of things that were previously off-limits, but have,

understandably still been gaining weight (I think, though since I no longer have

a scale, I don't know for sure, and don't really want ever to have a number

attached to me again), or at least not losing any. I really don't want to think

about " losing weight " , and as soon as I get rid of this wretched cold, have a

number of things I want to step up a little bit, in order to feel better and

stronger.

I've really enjoyed reading everyone's holiday posts, about overeating, but

feeling okay (which I certainly did for Christmas dinner with my partner's huge,

loving--and super-thin--family, but really not at any other time during this

week of holiday events), and the things folks have been able to tell

themselves....like " I am overweight because of ......, not because I am a bad

person, " which has been so helpful to me.

But am I ever going to start losing weight? I know that this rise at the

beginning when we stop restricting is normal, but then once that becomes normal,

and I stop overeating so much, is it also normal then to drop to one's normal

weight, like what I weighed all through college, and for about seven years in my

forties? I probably shouldn't even ask this, because it doesn't matter what

anyone's answer is since I feel so much better around food this winter than I

have ever felt before, and don't want to go back to any kind of crazy-making

obsession, but I'd really like to be able to breathe at night and be able to run

again and things like that.

Tilley