Re: Re: Quick check in...

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also, when you get too hungry and suddenly you feel like you could eat anything in sight... to me that sounds like one's protective inner self, working to protect you from the damage that could be caused by dangerously low blood sugar.

at that moment in time, one's body craves simple sugars as a protective mechanism! which is not a bad thing. but i imagine that need to protect goes away if one is able to feed oneself before reaching a " 1 " on the hunger scale...

best,abby 

 

Sandarah-

Forgive me if I am off track, but the depth of thought you're putting into the idea of this " battle " feels like resistance and rebellion to me. Wouldn't it be in within the IE mindset to eat the mints if you want them? It seems you are putting pressure on yourself to be past that point. I know that we need to segue from legalizing to a place of good nutrition, but you seem to be succeeding on so many levels that I can't imagine that doing battle of any kind is good for your food psyche. What do you think?

Eden

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> Hi all... I need to be brief as I have chores to do befoe I wind up my weekend but wanted to check in. My food/eating has turned a major corner and yet today I found myself responding to the siren's call of the hand-made, wrapped chocolate mint patties that I've struggled with/against for a while now.

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> I hadn't eaten any chocolate for the past week which is the longest time in months. And, I'd gotten in touch with chocolate not respecting my body and could feel my body cringing when I would think of eating it. But this morning it started to call to me and the cringe was not there. And the battle ensued.

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> The diet police jumped out in force and the rebel was starting to ratchet up the fule for an all out war. So I chose not to fight with myself and I ate some. I tasted them, enjoyed them, hoped that I'd stop (diet police) and ate about four before I was actually done. Later I went to dinner and when I came home I ate a couple more.

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> I sort of thinkt that this came about because I went waay too long without food yesterday and never did get enough to eat. So, I think my body wisdom was either on hold or maybe my body wanted them. Felt like it but my head isn't so sure. I believe I am allergic to chocolate and at one point didn't even taste any for ten years; but who knows if I really would be if I could just get the emotional charge off it.

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> Lately I've likened the food police and diet rebel with the Id and the Ego with the Super Ego the rational mind the balance I'm trying to achieve. (Freud anyone?) Or, the parent, adult and child of Transactional Analysis (anyone else here old enough to remember that?) Then there's the emotional mind, the thinking mind and the wise mind of Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). Well whatever works - but it helps me to understand some of the psychological forces that toss me around from time to time and my struggle to find and maintain equilibrium.

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> Anyway, my week has been totally peaceful and my food no big deal as long as I keep myself nourished which I wasn't able to do yesterday. But I did feel a bit of that old terror when those mints started calling my name from the refrigerator and rather than suffer the battle out or eat something I didn't want, I ate them. It was a choice to eat them and a decision to re-confirm to my diet rebel (Id) that my days of restricting are over. And now to tell the diet police (ego) to let go of the guilt trips and get on with it.

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> That's it; gotta get back to work. Thanks everybody - this is such a great site. By the way, I buy a lot fewer groceries these days - for me buying all those groceries was driben by the fear of the next diet always looming on the horizon.

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> Sandarah

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> " The only thing to fear is fear of food itself. "

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