Guest guest Posted January 30, 2012 Report Share Posted January 30, 2012 Sandarah, Thanks for sharing your journey. I find keeping myself nourished REALLY does make a difference. Sounds like you kept a level head, didin't condemn yourself, and just got curious about your craving for chocolate, which seems to be what it takes to let go of the compulsion. Have a great day! Sara > > Hi all... I need to be brief as I have chores to do befoe I wind up my weekend but wanted to check in. My food/eating has turned a major corner and yet today I found myself responding to the siren's call of the hand-made, wrapped chocolate mint patties that I've struggled with/against for a while now. > > I hadn't eaten any chocolate for the past week which is the longest time in months. And, I'd gotten in touch with chocolate not respecting my body and could feel my body cringing when I would think of eating it. But this morning it started to call to me and the cringe was not there. And the battle ensued. > > The diet police jumped out in force and the rebel was starting to ratchet up the fule for an all out war. So I chose not to fight with myself and I ate some. I tasted them, enjoyed them, hoped that I'd stop (diet police) and ate about four before I was actually done. Later I went to dinner and when I came home I ate a couple more. > > I sort of thinkt that this came about because I went waay too long without food yesterday and never did get enough to eat. So, I think my body wisdom was either on hold or maybe my body wanted them. Felt like it but my head isn't so sure. I believe I am allergic to chocolate and at one point didn't even taste any for ten years; but who knows if I really would be if I could just get the emotional charge off it. > > Lately I've likened the food police and diet rebel with the Id and the Ego with the Super Ego the rational mind the balance I'm trying to achieve. (Freud anyone?) Or, the parent, adult and child of Transactional Analysis (anyone else here old enough to remember that?) Then there's the emotional mind, the thinking mind and the wise mind of Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). Well whatever works - but it helps me to understand some of the psychological forces that toss me around from time to time and my struggle to find and maintain equilibrium. > > Anyway, my week has been totally peaceful and my food no big deal as long as I keep myself nourished which I wasn't able to do yesterday. But I did feel a bit of that old terror when those mints started calling my name from the refrigerator and rather than suffer the battle out or eat something I didn't want, I ate them. It was a choice to eat them and a decision to re-confirm to my diet rebel (Id) that my days of restricting are over. And now to tell the diet police (ego) to let go of the guilt trips and get on with it. > > That's it; gotta get back to work. Thanks everybody - this is such a great site. By the way, I buy a lot fewer groceries these days - for me buying all those groceries was driben by the fear of the next diet always looming on the horizon. > > Sandarah > > " The only thing to fear is fear of food itself. " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 30, 2012 Report Share Posted January 30, 2012 Well.... It sounds to melikeyou did the right thing. I also suspect that the six or seven or however many mints you did eat were considerably less than you could have eaten, or that you might have eaten in the past. But what a great description of the demons? What choices did you have? You recognized how counterproductive fighting them would have been, and also the futility of trying to substitute something else. And what a good realization about keeping yourself nourished. I am also discovering that I am most likely to overeat when I am over hungry. I can't seem to stop it at all.... Thanks for sharing! Tilley > > Hi all... I need to be brief as I have chores to do befoe I wind up my weekend but wanted to check in. My food/eating has turned a major corner and yet today I found myself responding to the siren's call of the hand-made, wrapped chocolate mint patties that I've struggled with/against for a while now. > > I hadn't eaten any chocolate for the past week which is the longest time in months. And, I'd gotten in touch with chocolate not respecting my body and could feel my body cringing when I would think of eating it. But this morning it started to call to me and the cringe was not there. And the battle ensued. > > The diet police jumped out in force and the rebel was starting to ratchet up the fule for an all out war. So I chose not to fight with myself and I ate some. I tasted them, enjoyed them, hoped that I'd stop (diet police) and ate about four before I was actually done. Later I went to dinner and when I came home I ate a couple more. > > I sort of thinkt that this came about because I went waay too long without food yesterday and never did get enough to eat. So, I think my body wisdom was either on hold or maybe my body wanted them. Felt like it but my head isn't so sure. I believe I am allergic to chocolate and at one point didn't even taste any for ten years; but who knows if I really would be if I could just get the emotional charge off it. > > Lately I've likened the food police and diet rebel with the Id and the Ego with the Super Ego the rational mind the balance I'm trying to achieve. (Freud anyone?) Or, the parent, adult and child of Transactional Analysis (anyone else here old enough to remember that?) Then there's the emotional mind, the thinking mind and the wise mind of Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). Well whatever works - but it helps me to understand some of the psychological forces that toss me around from time to time and my struggle to find and maintain equilibrium. > > Anyway, my week has been totally peaceful and my food no big deal as long as I keep myself nourished which I wasn't able to do yesterday. But I did feel a bit of that old terror when those mints started calling my name from the refrigerator and rather than suffer the battle out or eat something I didn't want, I ate them. It was a choice to eat them and a decision to re-confirm to my diet rebel (Id) that my days of restricting are over. And now to tell the diet police (ego) to let go of the guilt trips and get on with it. > > That's it; gotta get back to work. Thanks everybody - this is such a great site. By the way, I buy a lot fewer groceries these days - for me buying all those groceries was driben by the fear of the next diet always looming on the horizon. > > Sandarah > > " The only thing to fear is fear of food itself. " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 30, 2012 Report Share Posted January 30, 2012 Well.... It sounds to melikeyou did the right thing. I also suspect that the six or seven or however many mints you did eat were considerably less than you could have eaten, or that you might have eaten in the past. But what a great description of the demons? What choices did you have? You recognized how counterproductive fighting them would have been, and also the futility of trying to substitute something else. And what a good realization about keeping yourself nourished. I am also discovering that I am most likely to overeat when I am over hungry. I can't seem to stop it at all.... Thanks for sharing! Tilley > > Hi all... I need to be brief as I have chores to do befoe I wind up my weekend but wanted to check in. My food/eating has turned a major corner and yet today I found myself responding to the siren's call of the hand-made, wrapped chocolate mint patties that I've struggled with/against for a while now. > > I hadn't eaten any chocolate for the past week which is the longest time in months. And, I'd gotten in touch with chocolate not respecting my body and could feel my body cringing when I would think of eating it. But this morning it started to call to me and the cringe was not there. And the battle ensued. > > The diet police jumped out in force and the rebel was starting to ratchet up the fule for an all out war. So I chose not to fight with myself and I ate some. I tasted them, enjoyed them, hoped that I'd stop (diet police) and ate about four before I was actually done. Later I went to dinner and when I came home I ate a couple more. > > I sort of thinkt that this came about because I went waay too long without food yesterday and never did get enough to eat. So, I think my body wisdom was either on hold or maybe my body wanted them. Felt like it but my head isn't so sure. I believe I am allergic to chocolate and at one point didn't even taste any for ten years; but who knows if I really would be if I could just get the emotional charge off it. > > Lately I've likened the food police and diet rebel with the Id and the Ego with the Super Ego the rational mind the balance I'm trying to achieve. (Freud anyone?) Or, the parent, adult and child of Transactional Analysis (anyone else here old enough to remember that?) Then there's the emotional mind, the thinking mind and the wise mind of Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). Well whatever works - but it helps me to understand some of the psychological forces that toss me around from time to time and my struggle to find and maintain equilibrium. > > Anyway, my week has been totally peaceful and my food no big deal as long as I keep myself nourished which I wasn't able to do yesterday. But I did feel a bit of that old terror when those mints started calling my name from the refrigerator and rather than suffer the battle out or eat something I didn't want, I ate them. It was a choice to eat them and a decision to re-confirm to my diet rebel (Id) that my days of restricting are over. And now to tell the diet police (ego) to let go of the guilt trips and get on with it. > > That's it; gotta get back to work. Thanks everybody - this is such a great site. By the way, I buy a lot fewer groceries these days - for me buying all those groceries was driben by the fear of the next diet always looming on the horizon. > > Sandarah > > " The only thing to fear is fear of food itself. " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 30, 2012 Report Share Posted January 30, 2012 Well.... It sounds to melikeyou did the right thing. I also suspect that the six or seven or however many mints you did eat were considerably less than you could have eaten, or that you might have eaten in the past. But what a great description of the demons? What choices did you have? You recognized how counterproductive fighting them would have been, and also the futility of trying to substitute something else. And what a good realization about keeping yourself nourished. I am also discovering that I am most likely to overeat when I am over hungry. I can't seem to stop it at all.... Thanks for sharing! Tilley > > Hi all... I need to be brief as I have chores to do befoe I wind up my weekend but wanted to check in. My food/eating has turned a major corner and yet today I found myself responding to the siren's call of the hand-made, wrapped chocolate mint patties that I've struggled with/against for a while now. > > I hadn't eaten any chocolate for the past week which is the longest time in months. And, I'd gotten in touch with chocolate not respecting my body and could feel my body cringing when I would think of eating it. But this morning it started to call to me and the cringe was not there. And the battle ensued. > > The diet police jumped out in force and the rebel was starting to ratchet up the fule for an all out war. So I chose not to fight with myself and I ate some. I tasted them, enjoyed them, hoped that I'd stop (diet police) and ate about four before I was actually done. Later I went to dinner and when I came home I ate a couple more. > > I sort of thinkt that this came about because I went waay too long without food yesterday and never did get enough to eat. So, I think my body wisdom was either on hold or maybe my body wanted them. Felt like it but my head isn't so sure. I believe I am allergic to chocolate and at one point didn't even taste any for ten years; but who knows if I really would be if I could just get the emotional charge off it. > > Lately I've likened the food police and diet rebel with the Id and the Ego with the Super Ego the rational mind the balance I'm trying to achieve. (Freud anyone?) Or, the parent, adult and child of Transactional Analysis (anyone else here old enough to remember that?) Then there's the emotional mind, the thinking mind and the wise mind of Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). Well whatever works - but it helps me to understand some of the psychological forces that toss me around from time to time and my struggle to find and maintain equilibrium. > > Anyway, my week has been totally peaceful and my food no big deal as long as I keep myself nourished which I wasn't able to do yesterday. But I did feel a bit of that old terror when those mints started calling my name from the refrigerator and rather than suffer the battle out or eat something I didn't want, I ate them. It was a choice to eat them and a decision to re-confirm to my diet rebel (Id) that my days of restricting are over. And now to tell the diet police (ego) to let go of the guilt trips and get on with it. > > That's it; gotta get back to work. Thanks everybody - this is such a great site. By the way, I buy a lot fewer groceries these days - for me buying all those groceries was driben by the fear of the next diet always looming on the horizon. > > Sandarah > > " The only thing to fear is fear of food itself. " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 30, 2012 Report Share Posted January 30, 2012 Yeh, I got waay too hungry on Saturday and Sunday morning I had almost nothing to eat in the fridge. So I ate some stale potato salad, cooked some ham that looked pretty grungy, didn't eat it and then the " diet-rebel-charged craving " kicked in. Definitely a learning opportunity as I was off all the way around. It's no wonder my diet rebel kicked in; I was hungry and trying to pass it off with food that was definitely sub-par and not satisfying on any level. Well, duh. By the way, I'm distinguishing a diet-rebel-charged craving from just sort of wanting something. This is when the battle has already begun; the diet police have their SWAT uniforms on the rebel is set up for the hunt/kill/eat and there is no quelling it. Today I'm full of congestion, I feel like I'm getting a cold but know it's the excess mucus from the chocolate and sugar. My body absolutely did not like those chocolate mints. Maybe I am truly allergic. Well - live and learn they say. Thanks all. Sandarah > > > > > > Hi all... I need to be brief as I have chores to do befoe I wind up my > > weekend but wanted to check in. My food/eating has turned a major corner > > and yet today I found myself responding to the siren's call of the > > hand-made, wrapped chocolate mint patties that I've struggled with/against > > for a while now. > > > > > > I hadn't eaten any chocolate for the past week which is the longest time > > in months. And, I'd gotten in touch with chocolate not respecting my body > > and could feel my body cringing when I would think of eating it. But this > > morning it started to call to me and the cringe was not there. And the > > battle ensued. > > > > > > The diet police jumped out in force and the rebel was starting to > > ratchet up the fule for an all out war. So I chose not to fight with myself > > and I ate some. I tasted them, enjoyed them, hoped that I'd stop (diet > > police) and ate about four before I was actually done. Later I went to > > dinner and when I came home I ate a couple more. > > > > > > I sort of thinkt that this came about because I went waay too long > > without food yesterday and never did get enough to eat. So, I think my body > > wisdom was either on hold or maybe my body wanted them. Felt like it but my > > head isn't so sure. I believe I am allergic to chocolate and at one point > > didn't even taste any for ten years; but who knows if I really would be if > > I could just get the emotional charge off it. > > > > > > Lately I've likened the food police and diet rebel with the Id and the > > Ego with the Super Ego the rational mind the balance I'm trying to achieve. > > (Freud anyone?) Or, the parent, adult and child of Transactional Analysis > > (anyone else here old enough to remember that?) Then there's the emotional > > mind, the thinking mind and the wise mind of Dialectical Behavior Therapy > > (DBT). Well whatever works - but it helps me to understand some of the > > psychological forces that toss me around from time to time and my struggle > > to find and maintain equilibrium. > > > > > > Anyway, my week has been totally peaceful and my food no big deal as > > long as I keep myself nourished which I wasn't able to do yesterday. But I > > did feel a bit of that old terror when those mints started calling my name > > from the refrigerator and rather than suffer the battle out or eat > > something I didn't want, I ate them. It was a choice to eat them and a > > decision to re-confirm to my diet rebel (Id) that my days of restricting > > are over. And now to tell the diet police (ego) to let go of the guilt > > trips and get on with it. > > > > > > That's it; gotta get back to work. Thanks everybody - this is such a > > great site. By the way, I buy a lot fewer groceries these days - for me > > buying all those groceries was driben by the fear of the next diet always > > looming on the horizon. > > > > > > Sandarah > > > > > > " The only thing to fear is fear of food itself. " > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 30, 2012 Report Share Posted January 30, 2012 Right on Abby! I suspect that I expect my 'adult' self to be able to take care of myself, but your remark reminds me that I do have an inner self, which like a little child, also needs consideration. Allowing myself to get over hungry happens to me more than I realize. Having readily available, desirable choices is the best solution for me. Back to baking and stocking up for myself. Thanks for the reminder. Katcha IEing since March 2007 >. . . i find it helpful to carry snacks for myself, like i would for a > small child. because if my child gets hungry and needs a snack, why > wouldn't my grown up self deserve the same consideration? > abby Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 30, 2012 Report Share Posted January 30, 2012 Right on Abby! I suspect that I expect my 'adult' self to be able to take care of myself, but your remark reminds me that I do have an inner self, which like a little child, also needs consideration. Allowing myself to get over hungry happens to me more than I realize. Having readily available, desirable choices is the best solution for me. Back to baking and stocking up for myself. Thanks for the reminder. Katcha IEing since March 2007 >. . . i find it helpful to carry snacks for myself, like i would for a > small child. because if my child gets hungry and needs a snack, why > wouldn't my grown up self deserve the same consideration? > abby Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 30, 2012 Report Share Posted January 30, 2012 Right on Abby! I suspect that I expect my 'adult' self to be able to take care of myself, but your remark reminds me that I do have an inner self, which like a little child, also needs consideration. Allowing myself to get over hungry happens to me more than I realize. Having readily available, desirable choices is the best solution for me. Back to baking and stocking up for myself. Thanks for the reminder. Katcha IEing since March 2007 >. . . i find it helpful to carry snacks for myself, like i would for a > small child. because if my child gets hungry and needs a snack, why > wouldn't my grown up self deserve the same consideration? > abby Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 30, 2012 Report Share Posted January 30, 2012 Sandarah- Forgive me if I am off track, but the depth of thought you're putting into the idea of this " battle " feels like resistance and rebellion to me. Wouldn't it be in within the IE mindset to eat the mints if you want them? It seems you are putting pressure on yourself to be past that point. I know that we need to segue from legalizing to a place of good nutrition, but you seem to be succeeding on so many levels that I can't imagine that doing battle of any kind is good for your food psyche. What do you think? Eden > > Hi all... I need to be brief as I have chores to do befoe I wind up my weekend but wanted to check in. My food/eating has turned a major corner and yet today I found myself responding to the siren's call of the hand-made, wrapped chocolate mint patties that I've struggled with/against for a while now. > > I hadn't eaten any chocolate for the past week which is the longest time in months. And, I'd gotten in touch with chocolate not respecting my body and could feel my body cringing when I would think of eating it. But this morning it started to call to me and the cringe was not there. And the battle ensued. > > The diet police jumped out in force and the rebel was starting to ratchet up the fule for an all out war. So I chose not to fight with myself and I ate some. I tasted them, enjoyed them, hoped that I'd stop (diet police) and ate about four before I was actually done. Later I went to dinner and when I came home I ate a couple more. > > I sort of thinkt that this came about because I went waay too long without food yesterday and never did get enough to eat. So, I think my body wisdom was either on hold or maybe my body wanted them. Felt like it but my head isn't so sure. I believe I am allergic to chocolate and at one point didn't even taste any for ten years; but who knows if I really would be if I could just get the emotional charge off it. > > Lately I've likened the food police and diet rebel with the Id and the Ego with the Super Ego the rational mind the balance I'm trying to achieve. (Freud anyone?) Or, the parent, adult and child of Transactional Analysis (anyone else here old enough to remember that?) Then there's the emotional mind, the thinking mind and the wise mind of Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). Well whatever works - but it helps me to understand some of the psychological forces that toss me around from time to time and my struggle to find and maintain equilibrium. > > Anyway, my week has been totally peaceful and my food no big deal as long as I keep myself nourished which I wasn't able to do yesterday. But I did feel a bit of that old terror when those mints started calling my name from the refrigerator and rather than suffer the battle out or eat something I didn't want, I ate them. It was a choice to eat them and a decision to re-confirm to my diet rebel (Id) that my days of restricting are over. And now to tell the diet police (ego) to let go of the guilt trips and get on with it. > > That's it; gotta get back to work. Thanks everybody - this is such a great site. By the way, I buy a lot fewer groceries these days - for me buying all those groceries was driben by the fear of the next diet always looming on the horizon. > > Sandarah > > " The only thing to fear is fear of food itself. " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 30, 2012 Report Share Posted January 30, 2012 Sandarah- Forgive me if I am off track, but the depth of thought you're putting into the idea of this " battle " feels like resistance and rebellion to me. Wouldn't it be in within the IE mindset to eat the mints if you want them? It seems you are putting pressure on yourself to be past that point. I know that we need to segue from legalizing to a place of good nutrition, but you seem to be succeeding on so many levels that I can't imagine that doing battle of any kind is good for your food psyche. What do you think? Eden > > Hi all... I need to be brief as I have chores to do befoe I wind up my weekend but wanted to check in. My food/eating has turned a major corner and yet today I found myself responding to the siren's call of the hand-made, wrapped chocolate mint patties that I've struggled with/against for a while now. > > I hadn't eaten any chocolate for the past week which is the longest time in months. And, I'd gotten in touch with chocolate not respecting my body and could feel my body cringing when I would think of eating it. But this morning it started to call to me and the cringe was not there. And the battle ensued. > > The diet police jumped out in force and the rebel was starting to ratchet up the fule for an all out war. So I chose not to fight with myself and I ate some. I tasted them, enjoyed them, hoped that I'd stop (diet police) and ate about four before I was actually done. Later I went to dinner and when I came home I ate a couple more. > > I sort of thinkt that this came about because I went waay too long without food yesterday and never did get enough to eat. So, I think my body wisdom was either on hold or maybe my body wanted them. Felt like it but my head isn't so sure. I believe I am allergic to chocolate and at one point didn't even taste any for ten years; but who knows if I really would be if I could just get the emotional charge off it. > > Lately I've likened the food police and diet rebel with the Id and the Ego with the Super Ego the rational mind the balance I'm trying to achieve. (Freud anyone?) Or, the parent, adult and child of Transactional Analysis (anyone else here old enough to remember that?) Then there's the emotional mind, the thinking mind and the wise mind of Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). Well whatever works - but it helps me to understand some of the psychological forces that toss me around from time to time and my struggle to find and maintain equilibrium. > > Anyway, my week has been totally peaceful and my food no big deal as long as I keep myself nourished which I wasn't able to do yesterday. But I did feel a bit of that old terror when those mints started calling my name from the refrigerator and rather than suffer the battle out or eat something I didn't want, I ate them. It was a choice to eat them and a decision to re-confirm to my diet rebel (Id) that my days of restricting are over. And now to tell the diet police (ego) to let go of the guilt trips and get on with it. > > That's it; gotta get back to work. Thanks everybody - this is such a great site. By the way, I buy a lot fewer groceries these days - for me buying all those groceries was driben by the fear of the next diet always looming on the horizon. > > Sandarah > > " The only thing to fear is fear of food itself. " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 30, 2012 Report Share Posted January 30, 2012 Sandarah- Forgive me if I am off track, but the depth of thought you're putting into the idea of this " battle " feels like resistance and rebellion to me. Wouldn't it be in within the IE mindset to eat the mints if you want them? It seems you are putting pressure on yourself to be past that point. I know that we need to segue from legalizing to a place of good nutrition, but you seem to be succeeding on so many levels that I can't imagine that doing battle of any kind is good for your food psyche. What do you think? Eden > > Hi all... I need to be brief as I have chores to do befoe I wind up my weekend but wanted to check in. My food/eating has turned a major corner and yet today I found myself responding to the siren's call of the hand-made, wrapped chocolate mint patties that I've struggled with/against for a while now. > > I hadn't eaten any chocolate for the past week which is the longest time in months. And, I'd gotten in touch with chocolate not respecting my body and could feel my body cringing when I would think of eating it. But this morning it started to call to me and the cringe was not there. And the battle ensued. > > The diet police jumped out in force and the rebel was starting to ratchet up the fule for an all out war. So I chose not to fight with myself and I ate some. I tasted them, enjoyed them, hoped that I'd stop (diet police) and ate about four before I was actually done. Later I went to dinner and when I came home I ate a couple more. > > I sort of thinkt that this came about because I went waay too long without food yesterday and never did get enough to eat. So, I think my body wisdom was either on hold or maybe my body wanted them. Felt like it but my head isn't so sure. I believe I am allergic to chocolate and at one point didn't even taste any for ten years; but who knows if I really would be if I could just get the emotional charge off it. > > Lately I've likened the food police and diet rebel with the Id and the Ego with the Super Ego the rational mind the balance I'm trying to achieve. (Freud anyone?) Or, the parent, adult and child of Transactional Analysis (anyone else here old enough to remember that?) Then there's the emotional mind, the thinking mind and the wise mind of Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). Well whatever works - but it helps me to understand some of the psychological forces that toss me around from time to time and my struggle to find and maintain equilibrium. > > Anyway, my week has been totally peaceful and my food no big deal as long as I keep myself nourished which I wasn't able to do yesterday. But I did feel a bit of that old terror when those mints started calling my name from the refrigerator and rather than suffer the battle out or eat something I didn't want, I ate them. It was a choice to eat them and a decision to re-confirm to my diet rebel (Id) that my days of restricting are over. And now to tell the diet police (ego) to let go of the guilt trips and get on with it. > > That's it; gotta get back to work. Thanks everybody - this is such a great site. By the way, I buy a lot fewer groceries these days - for me buying all those groceries was driben by the fear of the next diet always looming on the horizon. > > Sandarah > > " The only thing to fear is fear of food itself. " > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 31, 2012 Report Share Posted January 31, 2012 Everybody's IE process is different - neither right nor wrong. > > > > Hi all... I need to be brief as I have chores to do befoe I wind up my weekend but wanted to check in. My food/eating has turned a major corner and yet today I found myself responding to the siren's call of the hand-made, wrapped chocolate mint patties that I've struggled with/against for a while now. > > > > I hadn't eaten any chocolate for the past week which is the longest time in months. And, I'd gotten in touch with chocolate not respecting my body and could feel my body cringing when I would think of eating it. But this morning it started to call to me and the cringe was not there. And the battle ensued. > > > > The diet police jumped out in force and the rebel was starting to ratchet up the fule for an all out war. So I chose not to fight with myself and I ate some. I tasted them, enjoyed them, hoped that I'd stop (diet police) and ate about four before I was actually done. Later I went to dinner and when I came home I ate a couple more. > > > > I sort of thinkt that this came about because I went waay too long without food yesterday and never did get enough to eat. So, I think my body wisdom was either on hold or maybe my body wanted them. Felt like it but my head isn't so sure. I believe I am allergic to chocolate and at one point didn't even taste any for ten years; but who knows if I really would be if I could just get the emotional charge off it. > > > > Lately I've likened the food police and diet rebel with the Id and the Ego with the Super Ego the rational mind the balance I'm trying to achieve. (Freud anyone?) Or, the parent, adult and child of Transactional Analysis (anyone else here old enough to remember that?) Then there's the emotional mind, the thinking mind and the wise mind of Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). Well whatever works - but it helps me to understand some of the psychological forces that toss me around from time to time and my struggle to find and maintain equilibrium. > > > > Anyway, my week has been totally peaceful and my food no big deal as long as I keep myself nourished which I wasn't able to do yesterday. But I did feel a bit of that old terror when those mints started calling my name from the refrigerator and rather than suffer the battle out or eat something I didn't want, I ate them. It was a choice to eat them and a decision to re-confirm to my diet rebel (Id) that my days of restricting are over. And now to tell the diet police (ego) to let go of the guilt trips and get on with it. > > > > That's it; gotta get back to work. Thanks everybody - this is such a great site. By the way, I buy a lot fewer groceries these days - for me buying all those groceries was driben by the fear of the next diet always looming on the horizon. > > > > Sandarah > > > > " The only thing to fear is fear of food itself. " > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted January 31, 2012 Report Share Posted January 31, 2012 Everybody's IE process is different - neither right nor wrong. > > > > Hi all... I need to be brief as I have chores to do befoe I wind up my weekend but wanted to check in. My food/eating has turned a major corner and yet today I found myself responding to the siren's call of the hand-made, wrapped chocolate mint patties that I've struggled with/against for a while now. > > > > I hadn't eaten any chocolate for the past week which is the longest time in months. And, I'd gotten in touch with chocolate not respecting my body and could feel my body cringing when I would think of eating it. But this morning it started to call to me and the cringe was not there. And the battle ensued. > > > > The diet police jumped out in force and the rebel was starting to ratchet up the fule for an all out war. So I chose not to fight with myself and I ate some. I tasted them, enjoyed them, hoped that I'd stop (diet police) and ate about four before I was actually done. Later I went to dinner and when I came home I ate a couple more. > > > > I sort of thinkt that this came about because I went waay too long without food yesterday and never did get enough to eat. So, I think my body wisdom was either on hold or maybe my body wanted them. Felt like it but my head isn't so sure. I believe I am allergic to chocolate and at one point didn't even taste any for ten years; but who knows if I really would be if I could just get the emotional charge off it. > > > > Lately I've likened the food police and diet rebel with the Id and the Ego with the Super Ego the rational mind the balance I'm trying to achieve. (Freud anyone?) Or, the parent, adult and child of Transactional Analysis (anyone else here old enough to remember that?) Then there's the emotional mind, the thinking mind and the wise mind of Dialectical Behavior Therapy (DBT). Well whatever works - but it helps me to understand some of the psychological forces that toss me around from time to time and my struggle to find and maintain equilibrium. > > > > Anyway, my week has been totally peaceful and my food no big deal as long as I keep myself nourished which I wasn't able to do yesterday. But I did feel a bit of that old terror when those mints started calling my name from the refrigerator and rather than suffer the battle out or eat something I didn't want, I ate them. It was a choice to eat them and a decision to re-confirm to my diet rebel (Id) that my days of restricting are over. And now to tell the diet police (ego) to let go of the guilt trips and get on with it. > > > > That's it; gotta get back to work. Thanks everybody - this is such a great site. By the way, I buy a lot fewer groceries these days - for me buying all those groceries was driben by the fear of the next diet always looming on the horizon. > > > > Sandarah > > > > " The only thing to fear is fear of food itself. " > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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