I'm panicking again!

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Hi everyone,

I pasted an older message of mine below so I wouldn't

have to retype some of my histoty...I'm feeling

overwhelemed and depsperate again!! I'm taking 80 mg

of Inderal as of last Tuesday and I didn't go to work

all last week. By this morning, I felt ready to go

back to work, even though I still don't feel myself

(mentally, emotionally, and physically). However, once

I was there for an hour, I started to feel like I did

before I went on the beta blocker....

I can't think clearly! I can't concentrate, I forget

things, I can't deal with stress - it makes it all

worse - the slightest little stressor! I talked with

my boss today because I've missed a lot of work off

and on - for doc appointments mostly for trying to get

this Hashimotos figured out. The past couple months

have been the worst and I've got to a point where I

don't feel like I can do my job!! And my boss said

maybe I should think about whether or not the job is

for me!! She said they might be able to work with me

on a trial basis for a few weeks - reduce my hours.

But like I told her, I CAN do the job, but while I'm

sick, I'm becoming disabled! My thyroid could die in a

month or it could die in 10 years! I'm afraid my boss

thinks I'm full of crap. But even if she is willing to

work with me, I don't feel like I can right now! I

feel absolutely hysterical and depressed at the same

time.

I asked my doc at the Cleveland Clinic about Thyroid

Supression Therapy and he told me " There is no such

thing " and " You need to just let the disease run its

course. " He also told me at one point that the way I'm

feeling has nothing to do with my thyroid! All I know

is I'm not myself, I can barely function (especially

under stress) and no one is helping me medically.

I'm wondering if my adrenals are shot? I want to do

whatever I have to do to gte better, but I'm afraid to

self-treat. I'm also afraid of losing my job and my

sanity! Please help!!!!

Thank you!!!!

M.

> What should I

> do? RAI? Nothing? Help!

>

>

> > Hi everyone,

> >

> > You might remember my recent posts about my

> periods

> > being over 2 weeks long...wondering if I was going

> > hyper again...some of you recommended that I get

> > bloodwork done again as well as an ultrasound. I

> did

> > and the ultrasound is normal (yay), but I'm having

> > other problems as well and I don't know what to

> > do...here's a quick history of me to give you the

> full

> > picture:

> >

> > I was hyperthyroid in 2004 (tsh was <.004) and was

> > diagnosed with Hashimotos (antibodies level is

> 329.7).

> > My doc wanted me to do RAI but I wanted a second

> > opinion, so I received no treatment. I had about a

> 5

> > month wait before I could see an Endo and by the

> time

> > I saw him, my tsh had gone up to 0.850 and my

> thyroid

> > was not as swollen. I felt some better too...so

> the

> > Endo didn't give me any treatment and said he'd

> > monitor me every 6 months and treat me when I move

> > from the " normal " phase to hypothyroidism. Up

> until

> > about a month ago, my periods had regulated, but I

> was

> > retaining a lot of water and feeling tired - I

> thought

> > I was heading towards hypo....but then about a

> month

> > ago, I started having different problems....

> >

> > Last month and this month, my periods have lasted

> > about 18 days and I'm getting 2-3 yeast infections

> > each month. Also, I have heart palpitations (and

> my

> > chest hurts from them) and tremors, I can't sleep

> as

> > well either or concentrate...I had my bloodwork

> done a

> > couple days ago and my tsh is down to 0.259. So am

> I

> > going hyper again? It feels like it, but the weird

> > thing is that even though my tsh is higher than it

> was

> > in 2004, I feel SO much worse than I did in 2004.

> So

> > what's going on with me guys? I feel terrible and

> I'm

> > having a very hard time making it through work

> each

> > day.

> >

> > My docs have told me and I kind of assumed that

> I'd

> > slowly go hypo over time and my thyroid would die.

> > I've read that some people with Hashis swing back

> and

> > forth between hyper and hypo. Is that what's

> happening

> > to me? If so, what do I do!? My one doc wants me

> to do

> > RAI, but what about the antibodies? Will I get

> better?

> > If I don't do the RAI, is there anything that can

> be

> > done for me? Will I continue to cycle and if so,

> how

> > long? My whole body and my emotions are a mess!

> > Please, I welcome any advice good or bad about RAI

> and

> > your thoughts, experiences, and suggestions....I

> feel

> > desperate...please help!

> >

> > M.

>

>

>

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