Those little demons?

[Guest guest]

Hi folks,

I have been thinking about the on-going discussion about those little

demons--the M & Ms, or the wrapped mints, or, for me, the Christmas Hersheys

kisses that are white with little bits of crushed candy canes in them. I took a

whole bunch of them to work yesterday, thinking I needed some kind of treat, and

surely that would be enough, but I ate them ALL, and would have eaten more if I

had had them..... And someone has been leaving yogurt (ie sugar) covered raisins

and cranberries in the office, and I have been eating a ton of those too, even

though they aren't all that great.....

But I was thinking about all this discussion about legalizing, and eventually

getting over this compulsion, but I wasn't feeling the compulsion earlier, when

I had my pecan pie in the freezer, and I started wondering if I was eating the

kisses as a kind of compensation. Since I don't have what I REALLY want, I

still want a treat, and this is the only thing that is there.

So to test my theory, I bought ingredients for and made a German chocolate cake

last night, complete with coconut pecan frosting. The MOMENT I even made that

decision, I had no desire for the kisses. I didn't have any need to sample the

batter (though I did lick a little off the beaters, and taste the frosting

once), or even to have a piece of the cake last night when it was finished.

This morning I had a piece of cake for breakfast (it was incredibly yummy) and

took my oatmeal to school to eat later in case I got hungry, which I did, but

only had time to eat a few bites between classes. I also have a big chunk of

cake with me here, but I don't have any inclination to eat anything sweet right

now.

So.....what I am proposing (for myself anyway) is that it's not the kisses that

I need to get over, but that I need to figure out what it is that I really truly

want, and have THAT available, so that I don't go seeking lesser things as

compensation. Does this strike any bells with any of you?

Tilley