Warning - whiney rant from down place in my IE journey

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There has been such a positive energy sparking in this group of late that I

almost didn't want inject the 'postcard' from my IE journey. But to not do so is

to deny myself recognition and processing that I probably do need at this

moment.

I've been in the 'you-are-NOT-doing-well (IE-wise)' wallow for a week or so. I

can now see all the whys - overtired, frustrated with couple things and

generally conflicted about not giving a hoot regarding required changes that

would improve this 'place' that I am in.

The frustration stemmed from not being able to 'get' what I wanted and having to

work over hard to finally obtain 'it'. I hadn't been at all prepared to expend

that much energy, but I did really want to results so I didn't let up. Great

results but drained me.

I also have been experiencing some frustrations with finding THE foods I want.

Between nothing sounding enticing and not having whatever I wanted right at

hand, I KNEW I was grazing and settling for, neither of which really satisfied.

I even granted myself a holiday - eating what had been former forbidden foods -

and that only added to the negative feeling instead of comforted me. Plus I was

rebelling at needing to be 'limited' by gluten free choices. Talk about danged

if I do and danged if I don't! Grrrrr and whine!!

The good news is that once I realized that I was mainly tired and hadn't been

giving myself a break (mentally as well as physically), a lot of the de and

pressing type of activity that I do internally eased up enough for me to take a

'breath'.

Do today is a day OFF (well dishes have piled up - lol) and my projects will

wait another day or two without the world coming to an end. As for eating, I am

going to let it take care of itself too and stop 'managing' it like I tend to do

- especially when I get 'pushed', which tired does to me.

Thanks for being here and listening - phew! I feel better already :-)

Katcha

IEing since March 2007