Re: Weight, discomfort, mindfulness

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Sue, great job just being aware of your body and eating.  I did the same thing in the beginning, eating all those " forbidden " foods but not paying attention to hunger/fullness cues.   Your'e doing better with the exercise portion it sounds like. keep going. Sandy

 

Hi, everyone!

I'm going to try to pay more attention to my hunger and fullness levels

when I eat. I'm in the process of trying to make peace with food, and at

the moment I'm not feeling very peaceful! I've gained so much weight

(haven't weighed myself, but it's obvious) that I feel really

uncomfortable. I have a hiatal hernia and severe acid reflux, and lately

most of the time I'm feeling a slight sense of queasiness, when I'm not

having downright pain. I'm on a very effective medication for it, but

now the symptoms are overcoming the effects of the medication. When I

eat smaller amounts, it's better. When I weigh less, it's a lot better.

I also feel more awkward moving and exercising. I've kept exercising,

but it's getting harder.

I keep reassuring myself that I'm on the right track, that I'm free of

all the rules I used to feel guilty about not following, and that my

body and mind will find balance eventually. I know I'm done with dieting

forever, and that's a good thing! But I think the time has come to focus

a little bit more on letting myself get hungry before I eat and nudging

myself to stop when I'm satisfied. I'm not going to do this rigidly,

though -- rigidity gets my diet rebel aroused like nothing else!. But I

can't go on feeling worse and worse -- it just seems kind of

counterproductive to me.

Thanks for listening and for being there.

Sue