Hello, I'm a new one too :)

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Hi everyone, it's nice to see a support group here. I have been looking for

something like this. A little bit about myself and how did I come to this point:

I have been a dieter for as long as I can remember. Since I was a child, I have

battled with being overweight and feeling uncomfortable with my body. At 13

years old, I found myself at 200 lbs at 5'3 " . Ever since that time, I have been

on a mission to lose weight.

From then on and throughout high school and undergraduate school, I succeeded

with losing excess weight by restricting certain foods that I deemed " bad " and

incorporating exercise. I lost close to 70 lbs through this method (not exact

since I have stopped weighing myself this past month). I am really proud of of

my success with losing the excess weight as I was definitely at an unhealthy

state given my other stats.

....but, in graduate school I think my intentions to lose weight and feel better

about myself turned more obsessive, and this is when I also faced episodes of

binging and restricting. These episodes first were a result of the stress of

exams.

So, basically for the last 2 years, I have been battling with these episodes,

and I have tried many things to combat the cycle, and now I find myself here.

When I really put a lot of thought about my personal relationship with food, I

find myself remembering a moment during my childhood, before my weight loss

mission. I was maybe 10 or 11. I don't what exactly the trigger was, but I had

eaten a whole batch of brownies that were left in the kitchen. Did my first

binge start there, I wonder...so maybe this binging isn't so new at all...but

anyways...

I am starting a new mission, which is to be at peace with food, eating when

hungry, stopping when satisfied, and not putting limitations on food. I still

struggle with food choices, especially starchy carbs like breads and pastas

because those were the foods that I restricted for a long time to lose that

weight.

So, I start with today, which was not good, but I wouldn't call it bad compared

to episodes before. I don't know what triggered it, maybe I was trying to avoid

some things that I had to get done. Given what happened, I still accept myself,

although I am bloated and not feeling my very best. I love myself to keep moving

forward and reach out for love and support.

Thanks to everyone that contributes and makes this group active. I am still

getting acclimated, but I thought it would be appropriate to introduce myself.

One question I have is, which Intuitive Eating book is recommended to start

with? There are 2 editions by Tribole and Resch. I would really like to start

reading this book, but just wanted some clarification about which one would be

best. Also, are there any specific audio books or CDs/Mp3s that you found

helpful? I saw some posts here about books, but haven't looked too much if there

was any discussion about audio.

Your help is appreciated, and I look forward to being part of this support

group. <3